A piece of me has been ripped away...

Sasa finally contacted me today... she said shes been really busy with school work, working at the same time and interviews all... which explains why...

i was really happy to be talking to her after missing her for so long... until she mentioned that its gonna be tough to meet up cos of her tight schedule and partly also because she is attached now... when i heard that...

i actually felt lost... as if someone has ripped a piece of me away from my heart... now then i realise how much i have been missing her and how much i like her... its certainly more than what i thought as mere liking... not to mention that she is cute and highly entertaining, there was never a dull moment with her as i will be always anticipating whats the next moment which comes as a surprise...

after that through the conversation, i realised that she had lost her phone. so all my calls and smses to her throughout this period of time for the past 3 months, she didnt receive them... God knows what would have happened if she has received them, especially when things were budding in HK, when i visited her twice there.. i've been twisted and tortured by fate..

i guess i have only myself to blame... for being so passive... i miss her, i do.. i really do...