a life in turmoil

past months has been a life in turmoil... that i lost myself... i din know where i was heading and i was running away.. there were things to be done and i am just procrastinating... life's a lot more clearer now...

was suppose to start job hunting after im back from europe but lack of money and other things like SEP and exams drove me away... i wasnt even doing the basic minimal... tmr is the last day of sep, i shud get the first ard over and done with den i can fully concentrate on finding job... NO MORE PROCRASTINATIONS!!!!

ive been spending a lot of time to myself, din meet much friends... even the movies i watch them alone.. finally caught up with all the movies that i wanted to watch but i watched all of them alone.. sometimes watching movie alone can be an enjoyment.. just indulge in the movie and escape into the world of make believe... the world of fantasy... like Ip Man 2, robin hood, iron man 2 and i caught prince of persia with adrian and cara.. it was good stuff..

the plans of setting up wedding planning service got a bit screwed by tong.. cos he did something similar but we totally had no idea to what each other had in mind... i need to step on it fast... as i got more friends who are getting married soon and those are potential business i can tap onto. perhaps i can go into partnership with tong if circumstances permits but tt remains to be seen.

weddings of barney, waiyu and kaisi, hansen are the main events i missed for the backpacking trip. next week weifeng is going to propose to weijing and i got news that colin is applying for flat and wingkit just got his proposal accepted by margie.
seems like a lot of things coming up, i gotta be more focused and stop whiling away.. Speed is utmost essential in business world

there were discussion with chris regarding the opening of cafe again.. seems like it is revived.. and the partner seems like someone experienced, so there is a chance of it working out.. lets see how it goes...

soccer been terrible.. ic ant plays occer anymore, been playing like shit... adds to my frustrations...

went out with Felicia last nite, impromptu for ice cream, i miss her and miss seeing her.. i got a Hello kitty soft toy for her with a small bouquet of orchids... i like her candidness and the way she is being herself and not afraid of other pple... but cos of my procrastination.. she is now other pple's gf... too little.. too late... if only i can turn back the time and do something about it earlier.. i think there is positive feelings between us.. i can sense it or maybe im just overzealous... maybe something will work out in the future... i most certainly dun wish to plan for her wedding with someone else.. i saw the smile on her face when she receive the flowers and soft toy... i know she is happy.. :)

Serene is someone i have in mind too.. she is totally different from felicia.. she is more demure and ladylike.. but still my type of girl... but she always go disappear and appear only at randoms den disappear again and ask u for favours... i dunno if she is shunning me cos of my connections with zhenfu... maybe sincerity and perseverance will shine through.. i will keep at it and see how it goes...

for now.. its focusing on the tasks at hand... job finding, setting up my business and most immediate would be to get pass the first aid test tmr...