Confused

I guess the truth is out...
She is going to tell her bf, that she wants a breakup afterall, she said that she has been feeling lesser and lesser for him and ever since the appearance of this new guy, it has dropped to a new low...
she got to know this guy thru msn, met him a couple of times... No, she wasnt referring to me... there is another guy in the picture. she said she like him because he made her feel comfortable, he is sweet but not frivolous and a little bit silly...

she seems smittened with him and he likes her as well, but she is having reservations, she thinks its too fast, she is scared that it is temporary, she thinks 3 is a crowd and she wants to be single for a while, she needs time to think it over carefully, she doesn't want to hurt anyone anymore...

Throughout this whole conversation, i was being silly, i thought she is referring to me, and she might have guessed how i felt towards her, saw it as a glimmer of hope, but it wasn't meant to be. I couldnt bring myself to tell her that i like her too, cant bear to heap more pressure on her... Maybe, I should just fade away into the background like what i said in my earlier entries, she won't know that i like her... maybe not until she, one day, chance upon this page among the vast galaxies of websites in this world wide web... maybe she will know, maybe she will not, maybe she will realise one day, somehow... maybe... maybe...

maybe it will be like the title of my pensieve ---> effervescence, but i know it is not...

oh!! and ITDSH means In Totally Deep Shit Hole...