Time alone...

feeling vexed all day...
cos i know he is stalking her... and i am worried.. worried that she might give in.. cos afterall they had a past... there was something that they once shared... lotsa memories and times together... something that i dun have.. something which i wish i can do something about..

i wish i know what she is thinking... and she talked to him the whole nite on the phone... something which i haven been able to do... cos she says she cannot express herself talking... sorely jealous i suppose...

desperately looking to go out, almost going bonkers... until Claris ask me if i wanna meet for coffee cos she got time before her salsa class... she still look the same as half a year ago.. still pretty and sweet.. still my pretty neighbour.. we had dinner at waraku at novena... den singly, i made my way to yishun to watch red cliff alone... awesome movie... i quite enjoy the loneliness... maybe i am turning into a hermit... maybe thats my way of protecting myself... maybe i need more time alone to think of what i really want...

i have been distracted so much that i haven done anything which i am suppose to do...
lemme wallow in this for a while... just leave me be...