New York Round 2

got new york again.. this time its my own... to my surprise... i saw charmy and yiling in briefing room and there is Nizam as well... i know now my flight is gonna be not so bad. its always good to have your friends ard...

wanted to go Neuschwanstein this time but weather was getting a lot worse... time not permitting with that kind of weather as well.. looks like tts gonna end up in my place to visit but never got to list... surprisingly I met Alvin from temasek hall on the flight too, he started flying as FO already.. keep asking me to switch over... honestly i would be lying if i am not tempted... but maybe not yet... i will see how things go in the next few months. So in the end, it was just heading to town and watching the girls shop. had the famous pork knuckles this time round, it was nice catching up with charmy and yiling and addition of another few funny characters... it made the flight a lot more enjoyable. Theres Amanda, Nancy, ADrian, felicia who is Charmy's batchgirl, brought us to see statue of liberty from afar on check out day and shopping at marc jacobs.

first day in NYC, we went down to wall street to see the NY stock exchange and the famous Bull.. and at night, dinner was at Bubba Gump... yum yum... i think i can safely say i completed walking through new york... i can say that i been to more places than other pple on flight cos they are always shopping in nyc. Bubba Gump is still delicious but we were simply too tired, i almost dozed off twice while eating.. i din know that could happen to me...

next day Barney brought me to eat Good Burger, another version of burger chain, i still think Shake Shacks is better. 2 weeks ago, we walked on the west side of NYC, this time round, we walked through East side... covered a fair bit, went thru the NY public library, din know it was tt grand and massive in the interior. at night, i skipped standby and headed to Queens to waiyu and barney to eat bbq korean seafood. its really good and the waiters dressed up like mario brothers and spartans.. kinda cool... but the food is pretty fantastic as well.. fresh and nice...

back in frankfurt... we ordered food in and had a small drinking session... nice chatting and catching up... simple and nice... thanks for making the trip enjoyable and memorable...

New York October 2010

finally get to go New York. This time, its with Thams and meeting barney there.
looking back, its a amazing how i survive with so little sleep. upon touching down, i immediately met up with them to go out. I guess this trip i didnt expect that i am going to cover so much of new york that i can probably finish everything else by the time i come 2 weeks later on my own flight. Chelsea Market in the west village is the first stop, we had some lunch there and barney brought us to a new attraction, the skywalk which cuts through the entire city. it used to be a old railway system which malfunctioned. from the west village, we walked all the way up to Times Square, covering more than half the length of Manhattan along the way. Times Square is bustling with life as usual, neon lights and people always makes the city so lively. Caught glimpse of Chrysler Building and Empire State building. before walking back to hotel, only to collect our stuff before we head over to Barney's house to play Fifa11. its only till 1plus in the morning before they call it a night and we headed for supper before we go back to hotel. Next day morning, I was supposed to meet Ilynn for breakfast, she asked 2 other girls along to my disappointment. Well, at least i get to see her, its only natural to do since one of them is her friend, but after breakfast, i headed back before meeting thams and barney again in Soho area for some light shopping before barney brought us to little italy, chinatown and east village. Lunch was at Lombardi's Pizza where we ordered something out of the menu, more toppings than they were offering and it was phew... yummy. each slice of pizza is so heavy that all the toppings simply slided off when we try to hold it.

Thams gotta go back to rest for flight after lunch, me and barney we trooped through chinatown and decided that we should walk across Brooklyn bridge and go over to Brooklyn to admire Manhattan from there. it was a tedious walk to say the least. weather was good thou, it was will worth it. its windy yet not too cold. nice weather for taking strolls with cameras. we really took our time until Waiyu finished her work and we met her at Japan town for dinner at yakitori. that was pretty much it as we were all dead beat from the walking. I was to meet barney for breakfast at shake shack. the burger is heavenly.. the little flea market in the middle of town was pretty interesting as well with the Flatiron in the background. Central Park where so many sitcoms were set was next on the list, its amazing to see sucha gigantic park in a city setting, totally random yet it gave a twist to the whole surrounding. tt pretty much summed up the entire tiring NYC tour. the only place left to be covered is probably the Wall Street area and Ground Zero which we are going when I come next.

turmoil

Maybe, i'm reading the signals wrong…. maybe she is not that into me…

i just watched the movie He's not that into you… its all about the love and relationships that people gone through and are put up for, somehow i think i see a few similarities in myself with some of the characters in there.
The part where you yearn for that someone you like to be equally into you, hope that she calls, hope that she is thinking about you, hope that she is dying to hear from you and see you soon. Somehow I ended myself up in this stage again. I dunno how, i dunno why… it was just one date, she asked me out randomly i supposed? maybe its just a friend friend thing and nothing more. go taste some milkshake, dinner, talked a little about life, our present status, taking little walks… Maybe my love language is spending time together. I was supposed to meet thams and esther after that to sort of make up for missing her birthday and she had to go home early cos she got london flight early next day.

we talked about meeting up after her london to go shooting photos, cos we got similar interest. I dunno why we din chat much after that flight, maybe cos she was attached? maybe she din attract me back then, all that happened was just some random post on Facebook and that was about it. until she took the initiative to ask me out and i obliged. she gave me a long hug on parting and asked me not to drink too much. not exactly very long but its a nice hug, slightly longer than a friendly friendship hug, something which i wasn't expecting and it was certainly out of the blue…. what was it suppose to mean? she did msg me that she was home after that. almost went for a movie date cos she couldn't meet me as she had ferns visiting, she tried to make time to watch a movie with me before that but tt failed cos no nice movies at then...

i didn't think too much after that as i was contemplating, should i go further and find out more. i find myself looking forward to her return, looking forward to spending time with her. i asked if she wanna come on to my flight, we can hang out and go out together. She did tried, after all many a times people just say they will try but they dun actually do it. But she did try, just that people didn't wanna change with her, i know cos i asked my colleagues on that flight. Was that a sign? i dunno… but after that i did miss her, even now when i was typing, images of her were running through my head, i actually miss her, i think i like her a lot more that i thought i did. i did try hard to change to her fra-jfk, but when i eventually did, she changed away and my surprise went up in smokes. She asked me not to do such surprise again next time, it did sound like a no. when i was like take it easy, she msged, wanna go sightsee for a change in nyc, wanna go empire state building. that lifted me up, it was a booster that i need. i dunno maybe im reading too much, its just having ferns on flight and making plans together. its a matter of perspective actually, honestly but maybe i chose to read into it. weather was bad and she found out she has a friend on the flight and she cancelled sightseeing, major boo boo… i just wanted to see her, i missed her, i just asked if she wanna have a meal together at least, she said breaky in nyc, i thot its gonna be us time, but she called her set of crew along, i became the extra. mixed signals? or maybe she is really just seeing me as a friend.

i hoped to meet her for meal, but she wanted to tapao and rest for the flight. thats another door slammed in the face… i'm confused now… i dunno what is suppose to happen. i asked wai cheng, she said girls don't simply anyhow hug guys. on her personal note, she told me, maybe she is trying to make me fall for her, its just her ways of doing things. maybe she is interested but not that interested, but at the very least she doesn't seem to dislike me. she did reply me when i msged her most of the time. she did give me a hug, she did try to change to my flight, she did try to find time for movie and she did try to have a meal with me. but she asked friends along for the meal, she did close the door on me for meal earlier, she didn't sound all that excited when talking to me, it seems to me that the roles has been reversed. from she being the initiator to become me as the initiator. me asking her out most of the time now. wai cheng said i am so obvious that i like her. but she said that i don't have a choice either if i wanna go after her. i'm now at the stage where should i go for it or back off slowly. too much is detrimental, but im scared that i will block her out like how i block other girls out too. or im back to psyching myself that she treats her friends like how she is treating me, i'm the rule, not the exception., i tried to pull myself back to reality. maybe im reading all the signs wrong, but her signs seems mixed. it does seem illogical for her to hug me right? if she is not interested, maybe she wouldnt even try to meet up or let alone reply sms. then again, she could be just polite.

Girl, you are killing me…. killing me softly and surely…

FML

procrastination is the word...
procrastination at blogging.. procrastination at job hunting...
many things has happened since my last post... in may... so much so that i din even feel like posting after every long flight which has been my usual practice.

job huntings and interviews have come to nought so far cos i'm still where i am.. recently i come to appreciate the freedom of time that I have with this job, often wondering what i will be missing when i quit. I had always known what i will miss.. the time freedom, the relaxed lifestyle, the travelling, sightseeing and shopping overseas and sometimes meeting very nice people... but its only recently that i realise that how much i actually appreciate all these... but it doesnt mean that i am going to stay put. cos its not my character to do so, i hunger for success and progression... something which this cannot give me, true that i will miss.. but job hunting must intensify... just when things are picking up, my msn and hotmail crashed or got hacked... so i kinda lost everything that i had in my hotmail, all my job applications stuff are all in there... plus over the months, my lappie is acting up, its not all that old its just too cluttered with too many things. a little format and reinstallation will do the trick but i couldnt do it without backing up. plus i thot of getting a macbook. just nice there is a promotion a free ipod touch comes if a macbook purchase if u are tertiary student... so i managed to get my wifey felicia to buy for me but me paying of course. it just got delivered today. so im going to do a nice backup of everything before formatting this Asus and use as desktop at home. this macbook is going to last me for next 5 years at least. sleek and nice.. i like... but this year has been a spendthrift year for me.. with the camera, computers and other gadgets that i have been buying... very bad for savings... especially so if im planning to quit. its gonna be a massive pay cut.

FMCG is a little hard to get in without experience, i just decided to broaden my scope and suddenly i see widen horizons... i got more options now.. the thing now is im going to stop using hotmail as my main, im switching to gmail instead for impt stuff. my msn contacts is gonna be a major headache to retrieve... i hope hotmail can get its act together and unblock my everything so everything can resume.

these few months i picked up photography too with Kevin, Vivien and Jayme... had lotsa fun taking studio photos... i guess its partly cos of interest... i can learn a lot more here and maybe do some assignments. Ilynn asked me out last month, we had a good time out, she seems like a nice girl, i'm trying to find out... but i went out with wifey today... i always enjoy her company and i can be myself when im with her... i like that feeling...

BB is cranking up... i went to service centre today only to be told that it will take 2.5 hours of waiting and 1/2 hour of checking to determine the problem but prior to that... my bb has to be formatted first... -_-
not without backing up first!!! i decide to go after this fra-jfk which i changed for. I can finally visit barney in nyc and go sightseeing with thams cos he is flying 1 day earlier. Ilynn was suppose to be on the flt that i change forbut she swapped away for doing a good deed.. i missed her.. i will meet her in nyc i guess. suppose to be a surprise for her.. ended up she surprised me... negatively of course.

now i got a lot of things on my hand after 2 new toys just came in... please backing up of my hp and job hunting.. i need to prioritise and spend less time playing games...

cmon.. wake up!!!