looming...

I realise i haven been blogging about the DND and other stuff lately... exams is merely next friday, am still slacking around and cant find the momentum to start mugging... daily dosage of takraw doesnt bode well also, been playing like shiet... nothing for me to fall back on... sometimes i wish i can jus run away... like what DT aka KBabe aka Miss Shin Wana is doing... fly to Aussie to spend a weekend there den back to studies..

i better wake up my ideas, its exams alrite? why am i so laidback?? I'm dreaming of my trip to Thailand already, thinking of going to Taiwan... and looking at Europe.. WTF man.. dude

C'mon Jingz... buck up... oh, DT calls me Aniki Jin(gpei)... muahahaha...


Thurs is my floor dinner... possibly our last dinner together with my beloved, trusty neighbours Roger, Weifeng, Kristian and TzeChong and Justin... sigh...

too much to take...

each time i close my eyes, the memories just keep flooding back, cant help but feel injusticed about it, i dun love her any lesser, the only factor is i din know her early enough, if someone doesnt know how to appreciate her, there are pple who do...

the worst thing is i understand how she feels, tts why i am in an even more dilemma, i'm always stuck in this controvesy of wanting her to be happy and fighting to let her go or do something about it... its killing me softly... i'm out of ideas of what to do, and how to face things... not that i dun wanna fight for it... but i know how difficult a position she is put into.. i cannot bear it... i'm lost.. and at a lost... eventually, i chose to listen to what she has to say... i cant even bear to see her upset... rather take the pain myself... keep everything to myself... pains me to talk to her, cos of the moral boundary... i wish things were much simpler, maybe i can be more selfish, but seeing her stuck in the middle pains me.. i'm hapless too... i'm living each day as it comes, nothing to look forward to... if she is happy, it suits me fine... leave the pain to me... these are things which i cant bear to tell her... i dunno what to feel anymore...

she ask me to help her and cooperate with her... is this the right way to go? i dunno...

lesser and lesser time

just read shuiyen's post on IHG, made me relived the days again... the fun, joy, sweat, tears, blood... what we have given it all, we got our dues in return... that made vistory sweeter dont they? I wonder what we have left next year, will we be able to repeat our feat again...?
I hope i can help the hall to maintain our status, next year could well be my last, its all depending on results... but i am sick of studying already... can't wait to go out and venture on my business...

I also want to end on a winning note, that will be my last contributions to the hall, the one i hold so dear, the people i love so much... IHG, DP, DnD, you breathed life into my uni life, all dues to Eusoff and the lovely people... the graduating seniors... my best pallies, my best neighbours, the things we do together, silly and stupid, funny or crazy... outrageous and nonsensical... surprising and sweet... so many, so many... life will not be the same again without this bunch... my tribute to you... my respect for your contributions and for who you are...

time of the year again, exams looming which means i have lesser and lesser time with you guys... nostalgia? certainly so...