Newfound duties

Making the good things that i do, OBVIOUS...
Integrate things as part of my life...
Open new market...

Constant reminder

I am in my last year of uni already... hall life still appeals a lot to me... maybe its the desire to stay in this sheltered environment for the longest time possible so that i dun have to face the mundane working life. Good thing is i already have something planned... working on my business already and opening up my options. I would say facing life on 3 fronts is not easy, school work, hall life and my business... been coping ok so far, thats cos deadlines haven been dropped. but now i am finding it a little harder to breathe...

drawing a few k per month is seriously good money for anyone still studying, even more satisfying when it comes from something you build up and something that u call your own. But there is a tendency to want to slip into the comfort zone of not wanting to work for it, but there are things which i have to settle and i have slackened already... i must remind myself that i cannot afford to. cos this is something that is my own... i cannot afford to wait... i want the option of choosing.. be it to work full time or to go try something new but yet having the benefits of both worlds. I want the overseas market... i must i must i must work harder and smarter, squeeze time out and stop slacking.. really...

Duajiak came by just now... just nice i am in hall... he came to visit and catch up with old friends... i can see that he is really tired and dreading working life... it reinforced what i have to do... i must not allow myself to slide into that zone again... who wouldnt want at least 10k per month... C'mon JP!!!

dinner was courtesy of chenyong who kindly bought KFC from JEC for us... in the end, we ended up raining grapes and marshmallows on A block... see who can throw into Jane's room... me, daming, hongwei, chenyong and weiwei... the crazy things that we do in hall... no wonder eusoff is like a home to so many of us... its been a good weekend so far... i got to know my block people better... and more of them, hopefully we can stay in contact.. business wise i am covered and now its working on my papers.. I got 1 more sem to decide if i wanna do my minor.. only 3 more modules to complete to get it.... should i or should i not?

thinking... pondering....

Been really busy with hall stuff and work recently... i think i neglected my studies a bit.. its time to play catch up.. deadlines are breathing down my neck and i got issues to settle at work... i need more time to catch up with my friends also... people whom i have neglected...

Grabbed this from a friend's post... saw it b4 somewhere, tot it is quite meaningful.. so well.. here it is..

Dont let this happens to you...

High School

As I sat there in English class, I stared at the girl next to me. She was my so called "best friend". I stared at her long, silky hair, and wished she was mine. But she didn't notice me like that, and I knew it. After class, she walked up to me and asked me for the notes she had missed the day before and handed them to her. She said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I wanted to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

College

The phone rang. On the other end, it was her. She was in tears, mumbling on and on about how her love had broke her heart. She asked me to come over because she didn't want to be alone, so I did. As I sat next to her on the sofa, I stared at her soft eyes, wishing she was mine. After 2 hours, one Drew Barrymore movie, and three bags of chips, she decided to go to sleep. She looked at me, said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

University

The day before prom she walked to my locker. My date is sick" she said; he's not going to go well, I didn't have a date, and in 7th grade, we made a promise that if neither of us had dates, we would go together just as "best friends". So we did. Prom night, after everything was over, I was standing at her front door step. I stared at her as she smiled at me and stared at me with her crystal eyes. I want her to be mine, but she isn't think of me like that, and I know it. Then she said "I had the best time, thanks!" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

Graduation Day

A day passed, then a week, then a month. Before I could blink, it was graduation day. I watched as her perfect body floated like an angel up on stage to get her diploma. I wanted her to be mine, but she didn't notice me like that, and I knew it. Before everyone went home, she came to me in her smock and hat, and cried as I hugged her. Then she lifted her head from my shoulder and said, "you're my best friend, thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

A Few Years Later

Now I sit in the pews of the church. That girl is getting married now. I watched her say "I do" and drive off to her new life, married to another man. I wanted her to be mine, but she didn't see me like that, and I knew it. But before she drove away, she came to me and said "you came!". She said "thanks" and kissed me on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

Funeral

Years passed, I looked down at the coffin of a girl who used to be my "best friend". At the service, they read a diary entry she had wrote in her high school years. This is what it read: I stare at him wishing he was mine, but he doesn't notice me like that, and I know it. I want to tell him, I want him to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love him but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why. I wish he would tell me he loved me! `I wish I did too...` I thought to my self, and I cried

comp not back yet... i am in dire state... lost without you....