whirlwinded

its been a long while since i posted here, i think i almost lost the feeling of posting in my pensieve... its been crazily busy everyday, but i am enjoying it... having fun, doing shit and enjoying my time as well... everything passed by like being swept by a whirlwind, fast and furious, was left breathless... i shall do a brief summary... D and J is leaving me confused...

school is starting soon, from the looks of it, this sem is gonna be damn hectic... i am taking 3 level 3 soci modules... and 2 others, i hope i can survive.... on top of that i am going to devote more time to my business... yes... i'm planning for my future already.. it just feels shiok to earn the kind of money that people are putting full time effort into while i am doing it part time... the bliss and beauty of the system and the teamwork is le magnificent...

the best thing is yiming is back... she said she wanna be a marquis...
we are aiming to buy a condo in HK.. cos we both like HK very much... its a shopping paradise... haha... (i know you are reading this, but i haven update my blog for a long time)

so many people's birthday just passed.. rebecca's, jingting's, carmen's, patrick's and wenting's just recently...

I'm having a bet with Kbabe aka my superwoman, if she can come back from shanghai losing the 5kg she put on there, i treat her to a spa session, otherwise, she buys me a swatch watch... hehehz... currently, the spa seems to be making her very determined.. ohh ohh...

I'll update again soon...

heavy

Home is refuge for us, now it became a relief to get out of....

deeper and wiser...

Monday blues...

woke up this morning feeling all pissed... i missed the finals... damn it, i was waiting till 115am till i decided to take a half hour nap, when i woke up... i was wondering how come my half hour nap is so damn long. the clock reads 7am... freak... missed the game and had to drag myself out of bed to go to work. things dont look good too when i was dazing and almost forgot to get off the train at Bishan to wait for Dorothy and i had to spoil my pass... damn it... Peggy surprised everyone when she bought everyone in the banking hall lunch... hehehz... without telling us the reason. most pple think she won 4D anyway... haha... some others think she won money betting world cup... haha... anyway world cup has reached a fanatic stage, such popularity that i find equal number of woman watching and betting as the guys... and schools give students a holiday today so they can watch soccer? such luxury never enjoyed before... everyone looked dazed and panda like today anyway, no prizes for guessing why... the pantry was highly utilised with the coffee machines being overworked... haha...

was looking forward to dinner with Zexian aka my Dai Kor today... he has been wanting to bring his wife to meet me. but she left for home earlier cos she wasnt feeling too well, she is pregnant anyway... i always liked talking to him... he always intrigues me and makes me think, plan for my own future... through giving scenarios from his experiences and encounters and always ready to listen to me... thats why he is always like a mentor to me... someone whom i always enjoy spending time with and talking to... this time it was regarding my thailand trip, slowly moving towards my r/s... he is always ready to offer his views and advice, in a way which i can accept and yet doesnt feel like he is telling me what to do... but rather he makes me think of what is best for myself... he asked me the details of the things that happened so far, which i wouldnt hold back from telling him cos i trust him and i know that he will be able to give another perspective which i might not have considered before. he asked me what i am looking for in a marriage, what kind of wife i am looking for... in that someone whom i am going to walk the rest of my life with. what i was able to give him was some very general answers which i know was always never gonna be good enough, not for him but for myself too... what i am looking for in a gf now and why i like this person now... it made me broaden up and sit up a little and realised how shallow people are nowadays, myself included. not that i am giving up cos of what he said, but it gives me something to think about before taking my next step... no doubt no doubt i still like her, but things are complicated as yet. Then, he told me one thing which surprised me, cos he never said that to me before. He told me, "Jingpei, you must have more confidence in yourself. you are a good looking lad with a smart head and highly sensitive to people couple that with good emotions, you are so going to be well-liked by the girls around you." i was astounded... struck and speechless, i think that is a very nice compliment by him but knowing him, he really meant it and din say it for the sake of making anyone feel better, i knew he was right... at least about the confidence part. maybe its time to start believing in who i am and has always been. we shared about our family and how personal goals and marriage intertwined... and what expectations that we should have. though i feel that i am like going through one of his classes, but yet i know that what he said carries a lot of sense. it set me thinking, my mind racing about what has happened in my life so far... what can i say that i am proud of to God. At the end of the conversation, i find myself clearer of my own direction in life and where i am heading and what i am going to do. maybe God is working his way through him, but i wudnt mind. thats why i say its always been amazing and enlightening to talk to him, makes me feel wiser and gain a lot more other perspectives. combining today with the first session with the goals i want in life and how i am going to achieve it and today's marriage and how to complement it with goals, i feel the path in front of me is so much clearer... Then he ended off with something which is very true and most people would know but never realise or come to grasp with. "The past is never equal to the future although it constitutes to what we are today, but if we stop right now, we ceased to exist, our future ceased to exist..."

today's session together with yesterday's by Archduke, made me wisen up a lot more. besides the will to succeed now and the fire in my eyes, i can feel the confidence that one ought to have. i feel different, much more focused and driven. maybe its just a pigment of my imagination but i am sure its a change for the better...

hey dai kor... i owe you a treat for today's...

a week's summary

first week of work is pretty interesting, i mean the job scope has been refreshing so far, i guess thats because its a new job... but the only tiring thing is that we have to stand for the whole day, so by the end of the week, i was quite good friends with Farhan and Liana and of course my supervisor Christina and Irene and there is the Boss Peggy. all of them are really nice and CNN came for an interview, saw Christine Tan upclose in person. she seemed pretty humble and down to earth and she even helped the cameramen to carry their cameras. den of course, i had a conversation with Amex Chairman of Asia-Pac region... woahh.. She is a confident and poised lady from NZ... so cool huh... the best part had to be the lunch date ;) her last day of work thou... cant have lunch with her anymore at the workplace thou... She came to talk to me today, with no airs of a Regional Chairman of one of the biggest bank in the world, she impressed me thoroughly...

sunday was well-spent in JB, attending course by the Archduke. dunno its because its been a while since i heard from him or he became better and better... i find that i can relate to a lot that he says and he renewed my drive and goal to succeed in LB... thou i was back previously, but i was like a lost soul somewhat... but now i am clear of my directions and i am hell-bent on achieving it... though i am marquis now... there are some things which i have to catch up with due to my long lay off but that will be put in place soon... now my goal is to build on it and help my team, of course kelvin and terry to achieve their marquis status, after that i am gunning for Dukeship...

Duke Lin is on the way!!

Reminiscence

just came back from the early morning soccer game, it was incident-packed even before the game kickoff.... with a venue at the ulu marina bay, its no surprise that pple are late due to the inconvenience of transportation... i was early, but had to wait for the blardy feeder bus that i ended up late... i din know that the marina pier was open already and there was a bus service specifically cartered for that... seeing the bus, i immediately hopped on without thinking, cos before this, there is only 1 bus service looping in marina south. in the end, the bus left me bewildered when it eventually stopped at marina pier... and before it makes a loop back to the same place. damnit, in the end, i had to call them to pick me up cos i was gonna be late for the game.

at the fields, a little mix up in the pitch and a little mix up from the opponents, resulted in us playing the wrong opponents for the first half... *@()@)#&$*(#!!! while our actual opponents were late and there were only 2 present...game was stopped and resumed when more of their pple turn up... without any apologies or rather the lack of effort of trying to be apologetic and displaying an air of arrogance, the opponents successfully raised the blood pressure of a few pple to boiling point... we played ok i guess, i opened scoring for us with some quick witted play that stunned their keeper and defence... when the second goal went in, it began to be a stroll in the park where we eventually wrapped up the match 5-0.... plucking out the last feathers from the arrogant peacocks.. haha..

never mind that,
after hanging out at office yesterday, i went for a mini jc class gathering with jo, huazai, junzhi, amos and shiling... not too many pple cos many cant make it, but even then, it turned out to be pretty nice and cosy, even though the combination seemed a little weird, cos amos and huazai dun usually talk to shiling back in sch... but everything fitted in nicely in the end, maybe because we haven met in a lot time and pple grown up a bit more, became more mature in their thinking. ate at marina square, some western food and we did some catching up before we ended up in esplanade for desserts... eventually, we ended up in bugis watching the england game... cos we couldnt find seats at any nearby pubs to watch the game. but anyway in bugis, we ended up standing to watch the entire game anyway... jo ended up with a dizzy spell, probably exhaustion... sigh... amos gave us a treat at prata's cos he won some money betting in the game with sgpools. then we parted ways but not before agreeing to meet up again for dinner but this time with more pple... and there was a mj plan on hand too... haha.. great...

sent jo home first, gave her the tshirt that i bought for her in thailand and the starfish which i picked during the dive... think that made her pretty happy... cant wait for the next meeting...