She said...

She said…

Haven been here in while.. my flights have been jammed packed… and I been to a few nice places like Johannesburg and Manchester which I haven’t blogged yet… not that I am not intending to… but I feel that this post takes precedent above the rest…

Waking up this morning at 5am without having to work is pretty torturous… considering that I just came back from Manchester yesterday and I am flying off to Rome tonight. But the fact that I am meeting her makes it all the more sweeter and more bearable… I haven’t seen her in almost a week since we got together in Johannesburg on 19th Aug. I don’t know I am a fool or I am being just silly, how could I indulge myself in believing that two can end up together after doing just 1 flight together and hardly friends to begin with… but it did happen… I like her… and according to her, she likes me as well…

Her life seems complicated… with all the past relationships and the controversies surrounding her, am I being silly to fall in love with her. In Manchester, my own mind was about her, wondering how she is and things like that… the normal stuff that a bf would wonder about a gf… even more so when she practically disappeared on me without replying smses or picking up calls. Gloominess clouds my mind, I being to wander if she is regretting our decision to begin, afterall everything happened in a whirlwind and I mean everything…being friends, dating to getting attached all happened in that few days… super condensed, super summary…

Somehow my worst fears came true… my sixth sense for this kinda jeopardy in bgr is always damn accurate… just like in the past with Maria… she told me that she felt everything happened too fast, she like me but she doesn’t want us to end up like her past relationships where there wasn’t any solid foundation to fall back on… she doesn’t wanna lose me as a friend, not like she want to treat me as a friend but she doesn’t want everything to end there if the relationship doesn’t work out… she said she is apprehensive because she is very playful now, she is not ready for a relationship. Lingering in her, are the post effects of the last relationship, she thought she had gotten over it while we were together in JNB, but after she came back to Singapore, when she is all alone again, she felt it coming back and partly cos of that she doesn’t want to be a gf who cannot totally commit to me. Holding her back is also the fact that she is going to Melbourne to study. She is going to leave on the first week of oct, 4th or 5th Oct, gonna be there for a year. I guess she doesn’t trust long distance relationship. She said that she doesn’t want to be a gf who doesn’t tell anything to me cos we don’t have a friendship to begin with, she wants to be someone who can talk everything to me, from the most crap topics to anything serious. She wants to be fair to me, doesn’t want to hurt me and wants to be fair to herself as well. It will be better if we start off as friends again, and see how things progress from there… I can see where she is coming from and I fully understand that, I think I like her enough to say that I don’t wanna lose her after being together with her.. albeit such a short time.

She asked: “what do you like about me?” at that point of time, I could only tell her… “feeling lor” but now, I can tell her that her cheerful disposition, bubbly nature, candidness and her sweet smile brightens me up, though I dunno much about her, I am observing and learning about her. Originally, today my intention was to ask her to maintain our r/s and we try to develop from there, but she told me that she might run away and hide from me if I press her too much. That brought a smile on my face, cos I see myself in her… I saw what I would do or what I did in what she said… she said she is not ready… and from that moment, I relented… I couldn’t bear the thought of losing her in the long term, I would rather take the risk to be her friend for now, to woo her all over again, just like brand new… give her the confidence to tide over what happened and to believe in me…to trust in me that I will love her and protect her, I can come to terms with her past, simply because I think I really fallen for her…

I am sure that she has no lack of suitors, I guess all I can do is to go after her like a boy who found a girl he likes and tries to win her heart…. If it has to be like in the movies 50 first dates, so be it… I think I have set my heart on it… Yes, it is a heartbreak now… but there is something more important that I have to do now, that is to win her heart and give her the confidence and reassurance that things will be able to work out…

At the very least, she wants to talk to me and before leaving, she ask me to sms her when I reach home… is that a sign of care and concern? I really hope so… cos she forgo meeting her mum who is leaving this morning to LA to have breakfast with me… I certainly hope things are picking up…

Manchester - Liverpool

Second time to Manchester, originally, I had planned to go to Lake district on this trip but the long journey and the prospect of travelling alone is a major turnoff… in the end, had to settle for a trip to a nearer place – the beautiful city of Liverpool. It was an on and off affair, cos I was undecided about going to Liverpool or staying to explore Manchester itself… in the end, on the very same day on touching down, I headed out to Liverpool with another colleague. Armed with nothing but a heart of exploration and visiting new places, we set off for the train station to catch a train to Liverpool which is 50 mins away. Reaching the place, we bought ourselves a map and begin planning where to visit. Anfield wasn't on the agenda not because that I am a Man U fan, but simply because this was an impromptu trip and we were more keen to explore the city and see the prominent features of the city. Seeing the various important historical buildings, nobody can come to Liverpool and miss out on the famous Albert Dock. Basically, we trekked around the city for the whole afternoon, grabbing street food along the way. We were lucky to arrive on the day where Liverpool is holding the largest music festival in Europe. Liverpool has just been crowned the most cultural city in Europe. Giants stages were set up everywhere in the city and roads were closed and most shops were closed for the event as well. But everyone was out in the streets, listening, dancing to the live concert bands and celebrities singing on the different stages set up in all different parts of the city.

After walking through the major attractions in the city, we missed out on the mini replicas of the famous icons in Liverpool. Homework wasn't well doned enough, so that calls for a revisit in the future. We decided to head to Anfield only to find that it is too far to walk and time is running out for us… so no Liverpool FC for us… and we travelled back to Manchester soon after. The next day, the girls visited my favourite club at Sir Matt Busby Way… I was torn between going again and exploring the rest of the city. Exploration got the better of me and I decided against going to Old Trafford and went out on my own to walk the city… tried to way through the city centre, did some shopping and tried very hard to find my Manchester fridge magnet to no avail. Which later in the day, I was told that they could be selling it at the town hall and I saw a souvenir show at Deansgate. I meet my colleagues for dinner at night, before retiring for the night and working back the following day… this marks an end of a rather uneventful Manchester trip, but fulfilling all the same cos I manage to visit Liverpool, so its another pin on the places that I explored. I think proper homework has to be done next time if I want to go to Lake District. Edinburgh and Blackpool was recommended to me and added to the agenda list for the future visits. First and foremost, getting my Manchester fridge magnet is important as well…

Johannesburg

Johannesburg

Being rostered for this flight is something which excites me, simply because its gonna be my first step on to the soil of wild Africa. I don't mind the early reporting, though it's a dread but still its somewhere new for me… I can’t wait to see the wild animals.

Seeing the colleagues so easy going certainly makes things seem a little easier, though there are a few funny characters around. But never did I expect that I am going to meet someone that is going to change my life. Before starting work, you seem like just another colleague on another work session. Talking to you made me look at you in different light, this girl got that little bit of x-factor that I like… indescribable but certainly very sweet and attractive. I don't know how it started, but the dinner at ocean’s platter made me took note of your easy going nature, your candidness and bubbly character. I miss the time when you ask me if I want a beer and both us ordered Heineken. You secretly going to the counter to foot the bill, I treasure the time where you sit beside me at the slot machines trying our luck at the jackpot… I strike jackpot twice that night, I don't know if its because of you around and you are my lucky star or its just plain lucky for first timer. I like the time where u reach into my coin box to grab coins to play, though maybe I am sensitive, it's a blissful feeling to be sitting beside you, not saying anything but just enjoying your presence. I like accompanying you to protect you and make sure that you are safe when everyone left… walking with you to find a place to smoke, chancing on a cafe, sipping coffee and sharing a chocolate cake. Watching dvd together, chatting on msn and calling each other even though we are just a few rooms away. Silly smsing each other after the phonecalls… I almost dreaded going for the sightseeing trip just so that I can spend more time with you. The lion’s park is an eye opener, seeing the lions, cheetahs, jaguars, wilderbeast, giraffes, ostrich and zebras up close and personal. I just cant wait to get back to see you and spend time with you… this trip has made me realized something… I found the person I like and would love to care for and protect for the rest of my life, I am so glad that you were called up to the flight, otherwise I wouldn't have known you existed and I had passed you by…

Lure of the Olympic Gold

Its pretty amazing how Olympics affects the lives of people... People all over the world are tuning in and staying glued to their television sets watching the sports telecasts nonstop, day and night.

Everywhere you hear people talking about Olympics, how Guo Jing Jing and Wu Minxia are going to win the diving golds, Is Micheal Phelps going to break Mark Spitz's record of 7 Golds in one Olympic? Who is going to beat the Chinese at the Olympics at Badminton? How the Australians underperformed at the pools... The insane run of Bolt in the 100m men's finals... the list goes endless... Probably the one that raises one of the most topics would be Singapore's final meeting with China in Tonight's table tennis Women's team Gold. Theoretically speaking, most of the racket sports, you can say that its all dorminated by the Chinese, be it they are from China or they migrated and represent other countries now. Such is the lure of the Olympics that they are willing to migrate for that chance to represent their fostered countries simply because China has simply too much talents in these fields that they do not get their chance...

Well, I just got home from visiting my grandmother, my uncles and aunties are all talking about Olympics, all of them would definitely be watching the finals tonight, none will be watching the National Day Rally that is telecast live. Simply because its Singapore's chance of getting an Olympic medal after 48 years, quite simply a rare chance for this shot at the Olympic Gold that even the National Day Rally telecast has been postponed just because of it...

Such is the lure of the Olympic games that everyone is talking about it, I am sure that Singapore will come to a standstill as everyone will be glued to their television set awaiting the outcome of the finals against the almighty Chinese team..
It is amazing how that little glimmer of hope can create such an sensation, even though it is unlikely that Singapore will beat China at the finals, but its just simply indescribable that how that tiny glimmer of hope can create such a stir...

For me? I will be shuttling between the table tennis game and the diving 3m finals, hoping that Guo Jingjing and Wu Minxia will strike Gold. Simply because Guo Jingjing is my favourite athlete of this games, followed by Phelps and Kitajima of Japan...

At the very least, i am glad that i am at home watching the games, at least for today....

Ajax Amsterdam and The Dam(n) thing

Finally back to Amsterdam again..
funnily, i wasnt as excited as the first time even though i was longing to come back again... perhaps fatigue has been an important factor, but what i have is a more punishing roster to come in the coming weeks... which i believe i will be updating soon in the following posts. Basically, i didnt even blog about the previous long flight to Tokyo and Los Angeles simply because i was too tired to do anything and basically whiled away the whole trip.

Once in Amsterdam, i jumped into the super cosy hotel bed to sleep for a few hours, i had difficulty getting up to meet Serene and Lewis to go sightseeing... We were on the hunt for this Dam, which can open and close to regulate the water level. But apparently, seems like the wrong info has been conveyed somewhere along the line, We headed out to Haarlem and IJmuiden, and we found nothing there but a damn wall which stretches damn long but its not even keeping out water... so we named that our DAMN thing.. with the real Dam still missing. Since we were here, we decided to go over to the beach to see what's going on there. Surprisingly, there wasnt that many people at the beach, but there were a lot of kite surfers thou. Taking advantage of the constant strong winds, many were enjoying themselves launching their kite surfs and surfing at high speed near the beaches. Some even manage to launch themselves into the air, carried by the wind... such a nice sport to pick up it seems... All in all it didnt end up too bad even though we didnt see our Dam.

We decided to call it a day and make for the hotel to rest, Serene and Lewis went home to meet the parents and for me, its sleeping time. The next day was a visit to Amsterdam ArenA, home of Ajax Amsterdam. One of my fave teams in Europe cos of their ability to develop youth players and of course partly their history as well. We paid 9 euros for the tour, relatively cheap compared to the Old Trafford, its pretty much the usual stuff they show you for stadium tours, bring you to the stadium to sit down, experience the stadium, take your photos and answer your questions, bring you to the meeting areas, the museum and lastly the megastore hoping that you will buy something from there. But the English seem to be able to do it better, make u feel more at home, more part of the club and definitely the better marketing skills. I still like Old Trafford tour better... Perhaps its because its my fave club afterall...

After that was shopping for Lewis' clothes cos someone is starting work on monday... den dinner was to follow before retiring for the night... on the way back to hotel, there was the Gay Pride Day!! Gay Festival where everyone seemed to be hanging out and drinking and partying in the streets. Which gay does it really mean, i think its up to your own interpretation. This trip is pretty much a laid back trip as compared to the previous one where we were all travelling out and rushing to catch this and that.. and all thanks to Lewis to decide to take time off to bring us around, but next time we are gonna see the real Dam, cos he knows which one we were referring to already. and i havent gotten my I AMsterdam shirt... haha.. will be back soon again..!!!!