Happy Sunday

Havent been out sweating for a long time... today, i went back to my roots.. playing soccer with the friends i grew up with. Sun was sunny and hot, but it didnt take much out of us... enthusiasm was high... Rain came pouring towards the end, but it didnt dampen our spirits. It was good old fun all the same. Time to shed some fats anyway...

Been talking to her the whole afternoon since i was back, as usual trying to be objective. She was troubled again, I was merely trying to see if i can be of any help. She was stubborn and refused to listen, until I told her how i solved my own problems. All thanks to Joanna my jiemei. Guess her advice was useful, at least as useful it was to me as it was to you. Facing the problem instead of trying to get over it seems like the right dose of medicine for her. At least it sounds new and appealing to her. Towards the end, we got into a game of bickering and teasing, and some dares.
This is what she send me...

"Leo and Aquarius

When Leo and Aquarius join together in a love match, the merging of Aquarian foresight and Leo creativity causes people to take notice. This partnership is energetic and unstoppable, and although occasional competitions may occur, there is never a dull moment for these two. Their Signs are congenial and have a good relationship. Both tend to be idealistic and highly motivated. Both are attracted to all things novel, and are thrill-seekers; they may even occasionally turn life into a giant game of Truth or Dare.

Many Leo-Aquarius relationships thrive on unending mutual admiration. Leo admires the individualism, vision and creative characteristics of Aquarius. In turn, Aquarius admires the Lion's zeal, charm and dignity -- Aquarians always have new ideas, but they don't always have the drive to make those ideas real as Leo does. Both Signs pride themselves on their independence, but conflicts can arise if Leo seems too demanding or Aquarius seems too aloof. Both partners should respect differences of perspective in the other. Leo can be too dramatic for Aquarius' taste, but Aquarius in turn could be too unsteady for their Leo counterpart. If they communicate to one another the value of the relationship, everything will be okay.

Leo is ruled by The Sun and Aquarius is ruled by the Planets Saturn and Uranus. These three Planets form a sort of cycle indicative of the Leo-Aquarius relationship and their ability to come together to create new institutions. Uranus is the Planet of new ideas and creativity; it's from this Planet that Aquarius gets its great vision. Then The Sun gives life and an identity to their collective ideas. Finally Saturn keeps the process going to completion, following up after Uranus's inspiration has been exhausted and The Sun's energy moves on to new things.

Leo is a Fire Sign and Aquarius is an Air Sign. Air fuels Fire and keeps it going; Aquarius can not only keep pace with the motion and fireball of energy that is Leo, but can add special effects. They can soar to astounding heights together. Aquarius is able to use intellect to inspire Leo's ambition and feed them new ideas to put into practice -- they are very stimulating to Leo. Together the two feed a process of mutual personal growth and development. Both Signs have a multitude of interests, and Leo's desire to be original leaves them more than happy to carry out the ideas of the more withdrawn Aquarius.

Leo and Aquarius are both Fixed Signs. Leo gives Aquarius the courage to charge ahead and take action, rather than just sitting in the lab formulating ideas. Aquarius's originality can impress Leo, as can their unique vision. They are both loyal and extremely devoted to one another, and when they understand that they don't necessarily need to be in charge all the time, they can succeed side by side.

What's the best aspect of the Leo-Aquarius relationship? It's their ability to create magic when they're together. Fixed Fire and Fixed Air cover all the bases -- these partners get an idea, plan how to put it into action, get the ball rolling and see it through to completion. This cycle makes theirs a love match of vision as well as practice"

I'm sure she didnt really mean anything, but she was very tickled about the part regarding the Truth and Dare...
At least i made her happy today... smile at least, seems like she needs someone who knows her well and knows how to make her smile...

Hong Kong & Rich Dad, Poor Dad

Just reached home, can't wait to pen down what i feel. Been around in Chinatown with Karen and Vivian, scouting for the best price in town for HK trip. 4 days and 3 nights. Will be taking ValueAir (my first foray with budget airlines), and staying in Dorsett Seaview. Departing on 5th July 7:20am flight and coming back on the 8th at 8:20pm, probably will reach Singapore at midnight.

Total Cost : 530 bucks, inclusive of taxes and insurance. The cheapest deal ard after 1 afternoon of scouting. Haven't spend so much money for a long time, it came as a heart pain when the nets transaction goes through. Suddenly, I felt quite silly, I have jus been to HK 2 years ago, was it silly of me to go again so soon when i got other choices available. But this trip will fulfill my intention to visit HK again, a promise i made to myself when i went 2 years ago.

I like the environment and atmosphere in HK, esp the winter season where the temperature goes down to 14 degrees Celcius, the whole place is like a giant air-conditioner. Since then, i made a resolution to own an apartment in HK, so that i can visit anytime i want and stay as long as i like. A dream which i promise myself that i will fulfill.

Couple that with the book i am reading now, Robert Kiyosaki's Rich Dad, Poor Dad. It just made me realised why i always wanted to do business. I do not want to be stuck in the Rat Race which everyone is so engrossed in... Though, I am only in the initial stages of the book, i could feel myself being stirred up and ready to fight for my own life. I am not to be pushed around by life, I will FIGHT and RETALIATE!!! Where everyone else is scared and fear of losing their job, its something they will never grow out of in this life unless they decide to change and stop complaining... THIS, hardens my resolution to work harder to become rich and I have my ways of doing so... I have great plans, and I am planning... I will not lay down and admit defeat... Though only in the first few chapters of the book, I am beginning to understand why people say that this book (Rich Dad, Poor Dad) is the book that changed the world... and I am feeling it...
Feeling it in my blood... It just hardens my resolve... and I WILL MAKE IT!!!!

Hong Kong!!! place of fun and food and determination and strive... here i come!!!
The next time I am visiting you, I will be bring my family along and paying for all the expenses!!!
*Determined & Resolute*

UnBelievable~~~!!!

They just don't rest till they win, don't they?
3 goals down... but they came back... and what a magnificent way to come back on a Finals' night.
trailing 3-0 from 2 goals by Crespo and 1 from my fave Maldini. I seriously thot it was all over, but not if Gerard wants to have a say, not if Wily Benetiez got some tricks up his sleeve. First was Gerard's looping header, just outta reach of Dida, then its Hamann's scorcher before XABI followed up on his penalty.

No discredit to Dida, after the first goal went in, i always knew he is going to concede more. Perhaps, he had a dose too much of Carlsberg at halftime. Second half, Pool was playing like man-possessed... thats what everyone wants to see, isn't it?

A pity that they didnt manage to score one more, if not i would have won my $5 wager to add icing on the toppings... But that is my team of the season for you ----> Liverpool...

Confused

I guess the truth is out...
She is going to tell her bf, that she wants a breakup afterall, she said that she has been feeling lesser and lesser for him and ever since the appearance of this new guy, it has dropped to a new low...
she got to know this guy thru msn, met him a couple of times... No, she wasnt referring to me... there is another guy in the picture. she said she like him because he made her feel comfortable, he is sweet but not frivolous and a little bit silly...

she seems smittened with him and he likes her as well, but she is having reservations, she thinks its too fast, she is scared that it is temporary, she thinks 3 is a crowd and she wants to be single for a while, she needs time to think it over carefully, she doesn't want to hurt anyone anymore...

Throughout this whole conversation, i was being silly, i thought she is referring to me, and she might have guessed how i felt towards her, saw it as a glimmer of hope, but it wasn't meant to be. I couldnt bring myself to tell her that i like her too, cant bear to heap more pressure on her... Maybe, I should just fade away into the background like what i said in my earlier entries, she won't know that i like her... maybe not until she, one day, chance upon this page among the vast galaxies of websites in this world wide web... maybe she will know, maybe she will not, maybe she will realise one day, somehow... maybe... maybe...

maybe it will be like the title of my pensieve ---> effervescence, but i know it is not...

oh!! and ITDSH means In Totally Deep Shit Hole...

Champions' League Nite...

Tonite is the nite... Champions' League Finals, My beloved Man U is not in the finals...
kinda sad really, especially since the out of the world season in 1999 where we lifted the Treble... European Glory has always been denied of us...

However, tonite's clash promises to be mouth-watering. My fave Italian team AC Milan vs a Benetiez-Rejuvenated Liverpool. Soccer Wizard Kaka and Super-Shev are some of my fave soccer players to don Milan colours, not forgetting of course, my fave defender of all times - Paolo Maldini. Along side with so many others, Crespo, Nesta, Cafu, Seedorf just to name a few...
Liverpool has been a revelation in the Champ's League this season, overcoming Juve, Chelsea with their much smaller and often injury-prone squad. Jamie Carragher, XABI, Gerrard, Cisse, Milan, Hyppia and Garcia in the Reds corner... thou arch rivals of Man U. Liverpool has won my heart this season...

thou i would love to see a Milan win, but secretly i am wishing that Liverpool will lift the coverted Cup. Glory has been deprieved of them for so long, with their performances in the tournament so far, i certainly hope that they will win tonite's encounter, even thou its over my Milan, but if Pool continues playing this way in the future under Benetiez, they will find a fan in me...

think i will fancy a little wager... maybe a $5 little bet on Liverpool to win just to make the game more exciting... yes, i think i will do that...

"Magikal" Moments

This title reminded me of something which happened a few days ago... sunday if i remember correctly - when my little cousin, Janelle, 3 years old, called me up and said, "Jingpei kor kor, you are my best friend, you know?" How often do you have that happening? This little cousin of mine, i hardly met her more than 2 times per year, the last being 2 weeks ago when i was helping my grandma move house. Its just one of those moments where one can sit down and reflect at any point of your life and smile...

I'm a kid lover, maybe thats why it meant something to me...
I guess its one of those sweet moments where it can be liken to the following scenario - you are having a stressful day at work, piles of work up to your throat when the phone rang and you are dreading it, but at the end of the other line, its the voice of your loved ones, wife, gf or even your kids, telling you something so sweet and innocent, so simple yet so pure. Its hard not to feel lighten up and the world seems to be a better place... Its just one of those "Magikal Moments" yah?

I just had a haircut, one of the worst i had in a while, regretted trying out this new hair salon... totally...

Anyway, she just came online, should i still say hi? or should i slowly melt away into the background...?

Plenty on my mind... Part II

I've been trying to recall what has happened for the past week... it has been a happy week even thou i was stuck in front of my lappie most of the time... I got to know a certain someone... think i shall withhold her name for now... not that i dun trust anyone... but i guess it wouldnt be all very nice if one day i decide to open up this blog to the rest of the world...

We have been chatting a lot on msn... everyday in fact, call us fools but in reality... we are just 2 very bored university students who had nothing to do during this holiday... jobs haven hunted us down yet... thou i have a business of my own... that wouldnt have mattered, would it? i just wanna experience the working life, but that aside. i guess we are getting along fine, plenty to talk about, plenty to crap about. Talked from daylight till dusk, talked about everything and almost anything, found out that we were pretty similar in certain aspects and outlooks of life, especially in the chapter we call Romance. We believed in trying to achieve the best for our loved ones, or at least die trying... i would pamper the one i love if i met her, spring her surprises when she least expects it, make life interesting and exciting to live in, i told her. But i wasnt about to be a wussy... certain things has happened in this almost a quarter century old life that i owned taught me that. I would expect my love one to be nice, considerate, sweet at times, have a mind of her own, bicker with me at times cos' that would make life more interesting, i told my friend and she quite agree with me.

we talked further, exchanged our loved life stories and crap a whole load of other stuff and looked for jobs together - online that is, but thru all these, i got to know her better, knowing her outlook of life, her personality even thou i have never met her. her friendster helped too... i was scouring thru her testimonies, and so she was too, on mine... teased each other like friends who had known each other for a while instead of being new friends. Day by day, i counted the days i had known her, not long... 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6 and today is 24th May 2005, i started talking to her last wed (18th May), barely a week not even reaching, hardly anything worth mentioning. But, i guess i know, i was a little attracted to her, developed some feelings for her, not much, just a bit. tried to deny it at first, brushed it off so as not to jeopardise this new found friendship, i din realise that bit was accumulating a little day by day. how was she feeling about it den? i didnt know, didnt dare to ask. i just kept mum, subtlely and almost always joking, i tried dropping hints, but she doesnt seem to want to tell...

On the 3rd day, she told me she was attached but facing difficulties, i could still suppress my feelings then, i tried to talk to her most objectively from a neutral point of view, tried giving her advices under the most normal circumstances possible, not letting my own feeling interfere with her problems. Her happiness seems most impt to me, no matter what her decision is. 5th day night, she said she was going to bring it up to her bf, she had made a decision and she sounded pretty determined. I was like, hey, good for her, maybe for me as well, thou it takes time, i was apprehensive, i knew something. i dunno why, i just know she will change her mind, but i didnt tell her that, i just wished her all the best. My sixth sense came true when she msg me to tell me she din break up. I was sad, of course, but not all that sad, i just wanted her to be happy, happy with the decision she made. It turned out to be a day of Happiness and Sadness for me. when she asked me why, i simply told her, happy for you for the rekindled love. Just leave the sadness for me, i will keep it to myself, maybe one day i will tell you, maybe i wun.

she mentioned that she was bothered by something and ask me if i have any idea but she dun wanna discuss about it. that got me thinking, what could that be? she sensed something from me? or is she feeling something herself too? i never got to find out, but if i am not wrong, i shouldnt be too far from the possibilities mentioned, otherwise no reason not to discuss with me. we were supposed to meet up and go out this week, but after all these, not much of a chance, dunch you think? i am really hoping for otherwise, it would seem all quite impossible now.
Her nick stands at ITDSH now - i dunno wat that means and she wun tell me... sigh, things like that always happen don't they? when i just start liking her for being herself, her character and personality, a full-stop has to be drawn....

Plenty on my mind...

I have no idea how that Java script works... i might not be even interested in finding out, i just want a blog to blog... not to show off or to attract an attention... its just my blog... my pensieve... Suddenly my dream came across to me... i wanted to own a ranch in New Zealand, breed my own horses and have my own cattles of sheeps, goats and cows and what have you.. of course a nice jeep and an helicopter for emergency... own properties ard the world so that in every major city i visit, i would be staying in my own apartment.. how cool is that... that is a goal, that is a dream which i am working towards...

I am still deciding if i wanna share this blog with others... still thinking... maybe later i guess... i gotta figure how this world of IT works first... i am pretty much a computer idiot... I still got too much on my mind now... dark secrets... or is it... i need some time to pen it down... i am really starting to wish that i am living in fantasy world... i really need a pensieve now... typing is tedious... thou enjoyable... seeing your thoughts appearing before you just like this... but i rather be having a moving memory where i wun forget, i wun miss out in any details... i wud need photographs to make up for it... but i have yet to find out how to post a photograph on this website... i will need a digital cam to be my tool... i think that will be a treat for myself if i manage to achieve what i wanna achieve for this hols...

Man U just lost over the weekend, the end of a dynasty?? i dunch know... it hurts aplenty to see your fave club, your childhood club, the very one which u supported since young going downhill at such an alarming rate... trophyless... insensitive of me i guess, no one can be winning all the time, but we the Red Devils are not used to not seeing any trophies... callous, u may call me, one can argue that there are so many clubs out there who haven won anything for decades but they are not complaining... surviving is their top priority... but i guess i got some elitist blood in me... i like to be winning... who doesn't? But Saturday was pure injustice... it could have been easily 6 - nil to Man U, but as the old saying goes, if you dun score, you dun deserve to win... tough luck right... definitely a tough pill to swallow considering how bad a season we have had... the FA Cup remains what it is - the last source of inspiration... I'm not a sore loser... Arsenal thou lucky, must be paid respect for winning... something that they have that allowed them to win it... they defended with their life... yes, that i will remember... useful lesson it will come out to be one day yah?? But when it comes to penalties, its not skill anymore... its merely luck... Scholesy's spotkick merely summed up the season for us... amidst the changing of hands at the top level... the dynasty seems on the wane... the history, the culture, the spirit, the defiance all on the downhill... there goes my beloved club..

Oh!! Did i mention that i am beginning to see traits of the old Red Devils in the new Liverpool? They are winning me over with their spirit... not like i am defecting... but that spirit is something which we can do with now... we need to find it...

AND... i am starting to find Jamie a very nice name... considering if i should adopt it as my christian name or something... all thanks to Jamie Carragher...
Now how do i sound, Jamie Zeelicg Lin Jingpei... haha...

There is always a beginning...

Everyone seems to be caught up with blog bug nowadays... I had resisted it for months... finding all sorts of excuses not to start, thinking that it will take up too much of my time and might seriously grow into an addiction... resistance futile i guess... NOT that i am regretting... With the hols now here... all the more i believed that i should take this opportunity to start... even then... i resisted for a good 3 weeks before succumbing to it...

Maybe i can begin with the blog address "zeelicgpensieve". Zeelicg is a Dutch name which a friend from Holland gave me many years ago... till now i have no idea if it means anything... and sadly... i lost contact with him... but this name stays for seldom there is anyone with a dutch name... "Zeelicg" i like the sound of that... its one of those names which u will never forget cos' its simple and yet unique... at least to me... Pensieve - that will be something magical, a magical way of keeping one's thoughts by using a wand and collecting the thoughts in a container... readers of Harry Potter will know what i mean... Something which is beyond us... but i guess blogging is the muggle's way of pensieve.. no??? Blogging, i feel that its some kind of avenue for muggles to pen down our thoughts and keep it in one corner, knowing that it wun be lost and we can refer to it anytime... functionally the same as pensieve, isn't it???

I still got plenty to add on to this "pensieve" site, but i shall end off feeling satisfied with my first post yah???