Super Blur Me

There was Geog lecture just now.. at 12... and i thought it was at 2... so at 12... i was still happily cooking noodles and eating... and started bathing and packing my bag to go lecture at 130pm... den i received vivian's sms... "HOW COME YOU NEVER COME LECTURE!!! NOT FEELING WELL???"

den i knew it... i mixed up the time... damn it.. i hate missing lessons... this better not happen again...

I think i mastered a new level in mahjong... minimising loss... when you are not playing well... how to slowly crawl back and win back your losses... The thing now is.. i must start winning...

talked to yasi just now... talked about a lot of things studies and all.. suddenly i felt kind of lost in what i wanna do... i mean i got my business LB waiting for me... but i just wish that i have more concrete plans for myself from now until graduation.. what do i wanna do and how to accomplish it... and to work full time at LB or to start out on my own or get a temp job first. In any case... studies and money is my top most priority now... must make more money... i wish there is more job lobangs... i will just take them up if it doesnt conflict with my time for other stuff.

And i must decide on the issue if i wanna do honours soon and start pia-ing for it. Yasi suggested that I do cos bachelor degree doesnt worth much now... i know what she means, although i am not one who thinks that studies and results is everything but i know enough to want to do well in my studies at least. I must pia from now onwards i guess. and still find time for Lb and other jobs.

Now, they want me in JCRC. either as VP or Hon Gen Sec... i must say that i feel honoured... really... but JCRC is something which i never really considered... thou i did contemplate with Sports Sec before... but i hate the long meetings and the commitment level that will take me away from the comms and sports and dances... these are the things that i wanna try this year... otherwise i know i will regret for not doing so... I might try next year i guess... it depends... thou working with Derrick and Xiaoyan should be a great experience... see how things go...

Man U won... finally... thanks to Ruud and Edwin... they are superb... though lucky, but i hope this is a start of things... Chelski and Pool drew last nite... Pool should have won, really.. but i am just as impressed with them in Europe this season... i hope they go far... I guess thats what playing with heart meant... Man U need to start playing like them... otherwise it will be too late...

Bon Voyage Jilly...

Just came back from the airport... I am wondering how come my life is so filled with sad happenings lately... one after another... now one of my most doted cousin just left for England to do her degree... ironically, i was the one who encouraged her when she came to my for my opinion. Although ultimately, its her choice to go...

reached the airport at 830pm... in the end was too earl... waited for her to arrive. Aunt is going to her, to help her settle the stuff so she can study with a peace of mind... i guess its dual way, she also cant bear part with her also. Brenda and Vera and Uncle were there... afterall its their daughter and sibling who is going overseas. My mum and Xiao Yee, and Uncle Kess and their 2 hyper active daughters (my 2 youngerset cousins) came to send her off too... Everyone din talk much, kinda sad to see her leave i guess, but its not like she is not coming back, everyone knows that. Silence and the enjoyment of each other's company seemed to be the order of the day. the funny thing is that Jillian actually panicked till she suffered from diahorrea for the whole day.. According to Bren, even the chilli crab dinner couldnt make her feel better.

her friends soon turn up in numbers... close to 30 of them if i am not wrong... each of them brought her something or made her some commemorative souvenirs to remind her to their times together. photos, albums, cards and such... i swear that she could fill one lugguage by itself. when time is up, the tears begin to flow, hugs and kisses of good luck... the unwillingness to leave... is something that everyone could relate to... when she finally checked in... that was the last i see of her until june next year... one of my most doted cousin...

Bye Jilly... take care when you are over there...
see you next year, Bon voyage...
*sadness engulfs*

*luckily there is something called msn...

sad sad week...

the week comes and goes... though there are lots to do... but i really felt that i never accomplish much... been whiling my time away? i dunno... maybe, but i thot i did something.. den again... its like nothing much... its friday already... project deadlines looming.. and i haven been down to office for a while... cos of all the sch work.. but still its a convenient excuse, i dun really know how much i accomplished...

seems like its a season for breaking up... Jamie told me that she just broke up with Zhixiong yesterday, she doesnt seem too ok... she din reply my sms... and Ruoyan, she seemed to have broke up with yuhan... She din tell me directly... but some statements by her and her friendster seemed to suggest so... and there is Vivien also... sigh...

Tmr, going to Ubin, to collect data... hope its not too shack, and we can complete it chop chop... and the sociology project for Prof Paulin and Prof Angelique is starting already... i hope the people are receptive to the surveys... otherwise i will be in for a tough time...

Should i stay or should i go?

Funny how this question pop up again...
though this time round, the feeling wasnt as strong as previously... but what amazes me is that i am comtemplating leaving eusoff... the hall i hold so dear... the hall i love so much...

thanks for all the wonderful memories... the wonderful friends... the tears, the sweat... the blood... the injuries... everything you could find... i think i been through enough here... not that my feelings has waned... but i think i cannot bear part with this place... not especially in the manner if i am forced to leave because i am going to graduate...

i have been thinking too... should i go for honours to prolong my stay here... to take a minor also... just to stay that little while longer... but people change... people will change... people come.. people go... its inevitable... I had seen the likes of Tom, Whiston, Weiming, randy, Duajiak leaving... Nana, jeannette, rachel, jerraine, amelia, amongst the rest... come end of this year, things will be much worse... weifeng, roger, kristian and potentially ah ben and zhicong... my B4 gang... and shuiyen, val and chin and company... the dynamics of the place is changing... i could be graduating with adeline, naj, siding and co. but i have a choice of staying... but should i or should i even leave now... i hate to leave now... cos its this batch of people who gave me these wonderful memories to begin with... but its also this bunch of friends, buddies, pals, brothers, sisters that i really wonder how much i really know them... are we conveniently friends because we stay together, or are we really friends... friends that will walk down our lifetime still keeping in contact and being ard for gathering..? i really dunno... and that is disturbing to me...

Zhicong just said it sucks, cos its his last year already... cos he cant make it for honours... i know that kind of feeling... the hate to leave the hall... the friends behind... cos i've been retained before... i know... i just know... plus the happenings between me and baby carol... dunno why she is so cold towards me... i merely wanna be friends and become better friends... i am still in the midst of finding out... never meant anything... why doesnt she understand?
these are the small small little things that are pushing me to leave... worst thing is next year, short wing has only me and daming left... patrick and barney are going for exchange for 1 sem... life is even more lonely now... Should i stay? or should i go???

Time... I need more time...

the week has come and gone in a flash...
there is so much happenings... but i haven even got a time to sit down and blog about it...
last saturday was ibg soccer, it was a gold that we wanted as much as the sepak gold... our main rival is of course D block, it came down to the wire... winner takes all... we lost to a lucky strike by kenneth... in the match prior to that.. this freshie, martin zammed me real bad... resulted in a sprain ankle... the worse i suffered so far... boy, am i not pissed... so much inconveniences and made me spend money... damn it...

its midterm now... lucky me i dun have midterm exams but i am almost flattened by the number of projects i have... suppose to be hols next week... but i am jammed-packed by the projects already... sumtimes it makes me wonder if having midterm exam is better than not having..

Last night was block initiation... i guess they are kind enough to give the new seniors a miss.. so i am lucky to escape... i was in charge of one station... i guess, i am evil lah... cooked noodles and all the seasonings and made them crawl through it... then, there is the dunking into the water and into the flour one by Ben, and the toilet bowl one and the swimming pool... heard that we are the worst block... but oh well... i guess if everyone comes out feeling closer to each other... tts what really matters. Zhiyuan, Royston, Kenneth, Sharon are game enough to take it in their stride... i guess tts what hall life is about...

Phew, there is tech class too for dance... not being a dancer has its disadvantages... what worsens it is i am suffering from sprained ankle... think i might have been able to get to dance better... but oh well... its all the what ifs anyway... but came out alright lah... from the dance... just need more practice... freda's dance looks fun... hope i get in...

Takraw finals tonite... we beat A block, though its expected, we were made to work for our points.... not helped by the match jitters... felt that i played alright today... partnered roger and kristian... its so fun playing with them... i know that after ihg this year... i might not be able to play with them together again... why must people leave...?

My week

been a week since i posted anything...
not like my life is uneventful, but its been simply too hectic for me to even sit down have some precious moments to myself...

Began the weekend working at the Comex for Epson. I swear that i will not work for them anymore... every freaking printer i sell is merely 2 bucks in commission... so much for talking and standing the whole day.. I thot they should learn to appreciate their staff more... Thou lunch and dinner are provided, its the norm and basic necessity that is provided everywhere else. For 2 days, i sold 19 printers... but i guess my total pay should be ard 150 bucks... which is damn pathetic... i think given anywhere else, i shud be earning 300 to 400 easily... Oh well... Should be getting my pay this weekend...

All my projects are barraging in at the same time... i am being drowned... seriously... no space to breathe... that even my work gotta take a back seat. Xiong's lobang for selling rollerchairs on his behalf seemed to hit a stack... he got 50 on his hand... so far, it seemed like i can sell only 10 plus, not even 20 yet... I gotta exchange goods for Chin Wan... mummy doesnt seemed like she is home these few days after work... company dinner and ktv sessions were the order of the day.

I am just as confused in my love life... doesnt seem like its getting anywhere... but at least... the situation is improving a little... gotta see about that... I'm torn between obligations and the necessities... 24 hours is not enough for me... and what could be better is i need more nights than days... if only i have the strength and will power to complete whatever i need to do... leading 3 lives in 1 life is not easy... i suppose only those who knows what i mean will understand...

I got a hammock to sleep on tonite... thanks Kristian...

Pillay comes to visit

Last night... Pillay popped by...
i was totally caught by surprised... I and him have never talked deeper than the usual hall stuff... I respect him as a person, its his character that made me admire him most -his calmness, leadership, vocality, daring-ness to try... eversince the days when i first played against him during National Schools in JC...

Of course he doesn't know me then, i'm an unknown... but we became friends when i came to eusoff.. he was my captain last year.. and i think most likely this year too... He popped over and asked me how i was doing... I knew which aspect he was referring to... but i was still very much caught by surprised that i didnt know how to answer... Then, he drove the nail deeper and i knew that i have no way to escape... that like i wanted to anyway, but i just dunno how to begin. He talked to me like a friend, i mean i know he treat me like a friend but i guess circumstances is such that we never get much chances to hang out together except for the occasional mahjong sessions.

He told me to take things easy and not get too affected by it... sometimes its just all the wrong timing... he willingly opened himself up to me... (not like people dunno about the past) but from the man, himself... it always feel different. makes u feel a little special that this friend is willing to share something about himself. From this, i knew he understood how i felt... Like he said, i am going to take things easy... time isn't ripe yet... i guess, all the signs are pointing towards that too... its just the letting go part that is a little difficult at times... but i guess in hall, stealth and denial is highly impt, that is something that i have to agree with him. For i had been a victim before. Sometimes, people just don't learn from their mistakes. Don't shit in your own backyard.. I will remember that... Thanks Pillay, thats really personal, i think last night took our friendship up another level...

Joann got me a job with Epson at the Comex fair for the weekend... thanks girl, i am really interested in working at these fairs for i think u will meet a lot of people and its really interesting... besides lotsa hall people are doing... Like Joann, Joyce, Kristian, Kevin, Rachel, Whiston... I am sure i will meet more of them tmr... Vivian is working there too... selling mp3 players... looks like i will be having fun for this weekend... so cool.. working at fairs...

Eventful Day

1st Sept...

Xavier's 24th Birthday and Winson's 21st birthday
Incidentally, its also Felix's bday!!!
the poor guy dunno what we have in store for him... after takraw, we went behind for supper and plotted for his celebration. Initially, the plan was to tricked derrick into helping us get Felix and then we tie the 2 of them together. in the midst of tying felix, derrick escaped us. After much torturing and cold treatment, ICE and WATER plus a water hose. 4 buckets full of it... i would shudder at that thought....

All of us were quite keen to get derrick for we let him off lightly on monday... he ran and shut himself in the room and locked himself in... much corceing and threats wouldnt bring him out... in the end, we had to resort to flooding his room... and weijian tried to climb in through the windows... but he shut himself in with much resistance... even loud mouth, wily weifeng could not force him out...

We were all determined to get him.... he is the top of the wanted list now... Everyone in B4 is determined to make him pay... haha... i wonder what will happen to him tmr... anyway, weijian tied a few ropes to his door, that should prevent him from coming out... gosh, he has 8am lesson tmr morning...

Back to felix, that poor boy was shivering in cold all these while... i guess i would have died... he stood through... damn man... he was stripped and had ice all over him... after a while, we took fotos with him and set him free...

I shudder at the thought of what they will do to me during my birthday... freakingly scary... But i guess thats what i stay in hall for... this friendship, the bonding and the stupid things that we do together... i hope we stay in contact even after we graduated... and for a long time to come... i really hate to lose them...

at the last glance, Zhicong is still standing outself derrick's flooded room shouting "chee-byes" and other vulgarities... freakingly funny...