Exams

i'm worrified and frustrated....

my papers are very late this sem... starting tmr thou, but everyone else is finishing already... I feel that i am better prepared as compared to last sem... as in, i started studying earlier at least and i feel that i studied more this time round... but it doesn't hide my frustrations that i couldn't do the past years questions... i think i am screwed...disasterous...

I wish there is a better way of measuring abilities... exams is obviously flawed... but no one can come out with a better system... until then, i am a victim... but too late already lah... next sem is probably my last sem anyway...

times are changing, but exams are not... its still killing people... esp me... how?
i still remember my younger days where i like studying and i do damn well in class, i seemed to have lost it...

*its her presentation today, she was damn stressed and complaining to me the last night... i wonder how she did... hope she does well and impresses...*

here i am...

nothing but a clear blue sky today at this moment... only a few wispy clouds hanging like threads in the sky... how often do you get that in Singapore?

currently, you are on top of my mind...
i am wondering... are you awake yet? are you feeling better?
hoping that the dizziness and the headaches have gone away...
if only I can watch over you while you are asleep...

10.15 am...
she awakes...
"wow.. havent slept for such a long time for such a long while.."

i'm glad she did...

why??

why is it that I get worried when you fall ill?

why do I feel my heart ache when you tell me of the bad spells that you are going through?

why do I get flustered when you said you can't walk properly cos you are dizzy?

why do I feel like rushing over to your side to be there for you just in case anything happens?

why do I only get closer to you when you are away?

why does my heart feel a tinge of delight when you say that I am sweet?

why do I smile to myself when we engaged in nonsensical talks?

why is it that I feel like I am talking to my girlfriend who was lonely overseas when we are merely friends?

why do I find myself staring at your photo?

why is it that I am reaching for your blog everyday, hoping that I find news about you?

why is it that I am willing to face your boss for you when you are worried that he might penalised you for resting because you are feeling dizzy?

why do I care so much for you?

why do I feel myself missing you?

why do I not dare to tell you that I really care?


because...

I find that I have a soft spot for you...

because...

I think I am not the man you are looking for...

because...

I think I am inadequate of you...

because...

I feel that we belong to 2 different worlds...

hopefully, someday you will know...
I am awaiting your return...

Do or Die

C'mon Man U...
i watched the match last nite... resulting in today's sleepiness... den again, i am always sleepy... who can resist sleep??? but dunno why... exam period, everyone is extremely sleepy.. judging from the nicks on the msn.. haha...

Dominated the match... turned Celtic upside down, backpedalling like idiots, like ants scurrying all over the ground, but no goals... den up came Shunsuke Nakamura... replica freekick to the one at Old Trafford... over the wall... into Van De Sar's left corner... unsavable... its a beauty.. seriously... den came Saha, the player i dislike most at Man U, ok lah... 2nd most, cos i hate O'Shea even more... Fergie must be getting senile... duno why he keep them for when O'Shea is like shit, can't play football and for Saha, he just needs too much chances to finish... too wasteful for top-flight soccer, i never thought he is good except that maybe he is fast and strong. Well, he did it again last night, one on one with the keeper and he was so casual to just attempt to poke the ball when he had the goal at his mercy, just seconds after Nakamura's freekick. No prizes for guessing, keeper saved. den the golden chance, i seriously dunno why he volunteered to take it when his morale is damn low, give it to Rooney or Cristiano or Giggs man... the penalty was poorly struck and keeper saved... Fergie should just sell him lah, bring in Torres (El Nino), Kaka, Diego, Messi, Robinho... Saha was the only one in the wall who didn't jump when Nakamura scored Celtic's equaliser at Old Trafford too... the ball sailed just above his head and into the corner, i freaking hate him... Must beat Benfica at home now...

Nakamura is fast becoming one of my faves... along with Giggs, Cristiano, Kaka, Robben, Van de Vaart, Diego, Robinho, Messi and maybe Ono... I'm leaving out others here cos too much to type... anyway, check this out and you will know why... (will post last nite's goal when its uploaded...











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Wenmei is getting done with her wedding shots...

Jingpei - Feel 100%> am i studying or am i just going thru the motion???? losing memories.... (SELL SAHA!!!! FREAK!!) said:
i oso want wedding

Pishako says:
get married lo, hahaha

Jingpei - Feel 100%> am i studying or am i just going thru the motion???? losing memories.... (SELL SAHA!!!! FREAK!!) says:
no gf how ot marry

Pishako says:
cos u atas la

!!!???
I am atas? more like girls dun want me...

world cup adverts

Exams = hair loss

exams = hair loss cos
firstly, you are already losing hair daily.
secondly, you are scratching your head more because you seriously sits down and
tries to study, but you don't understand what's going on...
thirdly, you begin pulling your hair because you are frustrated and sick of
studying...

anyway, i was bored and i did these tests... haha...


The Romantic Lover
59% partner focus, 80% aggressiveness, 45% adventurousness
Based on the results of this test, it is highly likely that:

You prefer your romance and love to be traditional rather than daring or out-of-the-ordinary, you would rather pursue than be pursued and, when it comes to physical love, your satisfaction comes more from providing a wonderful time to your partner than simply seeking your own.

This places you in the Lover Style of: The Romantic Lover.

The Romantic Lover is a wonderful Lover Style, and is the hallmark of young love--the Romantic Lover often loves the idea of being in love, and being a wonderful lover, and so they try to bring their prospective partners every bit of joy or happiness that they can. They are the serenaders, and the ones to rent carriages in the park or take a gondola ride down a canal. The Romantic Lover is a treasure to find, though they sometimes are prone to being hurt if their advances are ignored or harshly rebuffed.

In terms of physical love, the Romantic Lover can seem shy, but usually it is simply a by-product of wanting to be perfect for their lover, and often needs some extra encouragement and re-assurance to truly feel at ease. Given a special, intimate evening, and the right lover, the Romantic Lover can be a delight in bed.

Best Compatibility can probably be found with: The Classic Lover (most of all) or the Suave Lover, or the Exotic Lover.

Congratulations!

My test tracked 3 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender:

You scored higher than 99% on partner focus
You scored higher than 99% on aggressiveness
You scored higher than 99% on adventurousness

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BROWNIE BATTER!
You scored 96% SWEET, 70% CHUNKY, and 66% UNIQUE!
brownie batter ice cream with a rich brownie batter swirl

Mmmm....you are a very sweet mix indeed! You are warm, loving, and caring to all those around you, but you're not boring in the least! You have a wild streak and a creative, unique streak, too. You are a great friend, an interesting person, and you know how to have fun without ending up crouching over a toilet bowl. Nice!



My test tracked 3 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender:

You scored higher than 99% on SWEET
You scored higher than 99% on CHUNKY
You scored higher than 99% on UNIQUE

been youtubed...

What's wrong with me??

Submitted my last term paper for the sem today, but I dunno what I am thinking about when I am editing the paper… I meant to think that the Sun is the centre of the solar system but instead, what I penned on the term paper is that the sun is the centre of the Milky Way… what a grave error… moreover, it’s the first sentence of the entire term paper and what made it worse is that in the last lecture today, the lecturer actually mentioned that solar system is not near the centre of the Milky Way and she joked about asking us not to be so self-centred, it might not be a good thing and we might not come to a good end… I think that really just made my error even more glaring... now I really won’t come to a good end…

I think I am hooked on Sad Tango… if there is anyone reading this, do check out this à http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uzeCPV4LAAw. Its Rain’s mtv with the song Sad Tango… somehow I find the dance moves very mesmerizing and I am watching it up to 5 times a day… its crazy… maybe because I can relate a bit to the lyrics? Or maybe because the tune is very catchy but the dance is definitely have its effect on me… Did the mention that the costume with a cape behind is freaking nice too? The lecturer showed us a picture of the Milky Way band… something which we, Singaporeans would not have the chance to see in our own skies… Milky Way band is also known as the sky river according to the chinese mythology, guess who is at both banks of the river? Cowherd and Weaver girl… listening to Sad Tango makes me feel like I am Cowherd, thinking of my Weaver girl… haha… I am exaggerating… but its something along that line lah… Irene suddenly asked me why I dun wanna get a gf, afterall I have been single for so long… that’s a question which I have been thinking about too… till now, no answer…

Today’s MnO lecture was a showcase for 4 videos which Dan thought did very well… 2 groups out of the 4 were from people I know. Miao Guang, Songkun in one and Naj in the other… I must say that theirs’s really very funny and they deserve it and for Naj’s group, its altogether a refreshing idea, Allister in Wonderland. The cinematics is really good, no wonder they are in. the 3^rd group manages to make use of daily life analogy and languages that we used, it was pretty interesting and the last group, pacifiers and babies is freakingly hilarious.. kudos to them too... it made me wonder why I didn’t think of using everyday life for my film too, I had plenty of them with all the crappy friends around me daily… from Thang’s tuck in incident to eating snake, to pulling up the socks and lobang “ole”, if I had thought of it earlier, maybe my film will be up there too… oh wells…

Jogging

I think i know how Val felt when she is running... I like the feel of it... its just that i am lazy... i like jogging.. or running... gives me the feeling of leaving everything behind... if i could i wish i can run forever...

felt down suddenly... decided to sweat it out... since no one is ard.. i just went to jog on my own... my first time this year.. i think it wun be the last... cos most prob its my last year, should make jogging a habit... as long as i can overcome my laziness... i carried my stitch throughout the whole jog round the school and completed the entire round without stopping... its a sense of satisfaction...

Running - No Doubt
running, running as fast as we can...
do you think we'll make it?

jus keep playing in my mind...

exams coming... dread...