Obsession

things has happened over the past 2 days... (omg, what am i talking about? of course things has happened)

yesterday's trip down to office was an eye opener... Duke Chiu's session was inspiring and indeed refreshing... made me realise why i wanna do the biz all over again... i stayed back to talk to the people... i can really feel the drive in them, the will to succeed and how much they wanted success... esp Terry and Kelvin, i can see the leadership blossoming in them... being out of touch for so long, i have quite some stuff to catch up with... Kel is tired, as far as i can see... but his determination level is really high, to the extent of nothing will stop him from succeeding... i would say, he wants it even more badly than me when i was still in sync with the biz... i really hope i can help in some ways, but firstly, i gotta refresh and get back in tune with it first... sadly time is not on his side, he is going away to study overseas... i gotta try to work something out for him... terry's side looks far more stable... xiong is handling it... so its cool... objective now is to pick up asap den i can help Kelvin and yiming as well... Small fart and i agreed on something to a certain extent... we dun quite understand why would pple wanna take biz when they are going to work for other pple in the future... wherelse the entrepreneurs end up in other facs... biz pple are just complaining that next time they dun have jobs and worried about competition and stuff lidat... depriving places in the fac that others would be so interested in... i mean, i have to say its a sweeping statement, but its high level of truth in it to a certain extent... thats our observation anyway...

work today was easier compared to prev days, most pple got the IPO data already... so there wasnt much to do anyway... after work, we pop down to Kel Svcs, Pat and his friend, i was happy to tag along, elated to see Char.. smiley and chirpy and cute as ever... think things got a little better after she knew i was bec's friend.. so maybe it might not be so awkward next time, afterall we can really talk cock to each other anyway... can ask bec to help.. that made my day =)

met my jiemei in bugis for dinner, talked a lot and catch up a lot... its always been fun meeting up with her... she is kinda drama and fun to be with.. too bad she is starting work tmr... sigh... she intro-ed her pri sch friend to me... turn out to be a hall mate's sister and friend of yasi and joe.. haha small world indeed... enjoyable outing... jiemei is highly sensitive lah... she can sense when my mood changes... haha.. no wonder she is my jiemei... Xiang yan sent her back, jo msg me and ask me to be careful... thats my jiemei for you.. ;)

Winless...

had a game today, had to travel to Tampiness.. not that i mind anyway, but luckily got direct bus... we lost again today, its been 6 games already... winless... bad patch really... for the last 2 games which i actually played... we were dominating the game, chances after chances not put away, and the opponents have all the luck in the world... scored through counter attack or some really tyco freak goals... today was same story, we did everything right except to put the ball in the net... dominated and pressured them, but still cant win... though we still need to improve, i thot we did enough.. we need to start winning again...

got my results last friday... it was terrible... littered with B minuses and Cs, my gawd... its the worst i ever saw... naturally i'm disappointed... but a little relieved oso, cos i was expecting to fail 2 of my soci mods... but i scrapped thru... but i thot i could do better for others, they turn out bad instead... i think i lost it... at this rate, i am not even gonna get my merit... honours is already a problem, merit now at stake too... this is getting bad.. i better put in more effort to studies... at least pull it back up to merit... I've been invited to be treasurer for DP this coming year... thou i was hoping for the impossible to be one of the producer... but oh wells.. i dunno to take it up ornot... i also have to start thinking about what to commit to hall for the coming year... i had better start planning out a path for myself in the future... i'm wavering... sighh...

Pleasant surprise... Charlotte turned out to be becca's classmate in jc... but that still doesnt leave me in any better position to make friends... like what pipi says, if she is any decent girl, why would she make friends with any random guy? tt sounds true as it is... there got to be somewhere ard this somehow... think think think!!!

shack-a-delic

halfday work today... came home after having lunch with lorraine... she seemed happy to have my company... think her workplace very stressed ah... like not much pple have lunch with her lidat... got a stressed look on her face... kinda funny... hehehz.. she is meeting dingding and addie for facial later... the luxury of being a girl... hehehz...

job was suppose to end today and i was looking forward to working at the IT fair. got offers from canon and gajah... either which is fine by me actually but canon got better offer thou.. i think i can earn quite a bit from there lah... until DBS offer to extend our contract for another 8 days... den Charlotte called... i was torn... its her and DBS vs a more interesting work at IT fair thou its more of commission based but i have no problem with that cos i can sell lah. in the end, i settled for DBS, they say "ying xiong nan guo mei ren guan".. haii, i just wanted to have more chance of contact with her and to know her properly... hope she gimme the chance. So far the attempts to get her number and msn din get much favourable results. She says talk about it at a later time... Babe says, must wait for things to settle down and try to talk to her more and talk more casually... we can click lah... as i said earlier... a simple phone call can drag for a while cos we always talk cock... really hope things can progress from here, at least be proper friends with contact lah, i have until the end of this hols to get to know her properly... hope something works out by then... now my contract with DBS runs till 7th june, 2 days before i fly off... think i must try to ask her out for lunch before i leave. Pat spent a bomb shopping yesterday, luckily i didnt succumb to temptations...

Becca seems to be having fun at Daikin call centre and earning quite a bit, maybe i will work there when i come back. i had to pang seh xiwen today cos i was too tired... suppose to meet her at 4 after lunching with lorraine. sorry girl... in the end, she found HP... 50 bucks per day and 10 bucks per comp or printer sold for the IT fair for commission... wah lan.. good deal... shit i agreed to the extension already...

went back to LB yesterday, think everyone was happy to see me... now i need to brush up and refresh my skills so i can help them... tmr gotta call up the contacts for hall... and check on my pay...

working life..

waking up at 6am for work after an eventful day at Jb yesterday was no joke... i needed 3 alarms to wake up... mother shack... but still i manage to made my way to work on time, with a secret wish to spot.. nonetheless, today's work is just hell cos another IPO was launched... me and pat were slogging our guts out from setting up the booth, preparing and the relentless crowd... not to mention the constant shuttling from office to display booth to transport the displays and prospectus... had to skip lunch cos it was too busy... lorraine called and ask me to have lunch with her, cos she was lonely... haha... that poor thing, but in the end, i din had lunch myself... :P

was really looking forward to the end of the day, pat and me were all feeling from the aftermath of yesterday's soccer and JB... after that, we made our way to cityhall to relax and have a cup of coffee before i went to chinatown to meet weizhen, rebecca, jingting and lay peng for dinner... the yuntun mee was pretty nice and we had rochor road tau huey after that... peng left earlier cos she had to wake up early... the rest of us made our way to suntec, nuss guild house.. i din know there was one there.. the ambience is nice and the place nicely furnished... think i better get the membership soon... its a cool place to chill out... i'm loving it already... took lotsa fotos and had a few drinks.. think next time, working life shud be this way already... chilling out after work... haha...

kinda sad that work is ending soon, i shud be working at Daikin or Gucci next... Becca seemed to be having fun at Daikin, while Gucci looks like another fun place.. or i might jus go back Kelly services for other options. Yogi, got a job at DBS for archiving... i spotted him.. so fast got a proper job.. while i jus got nothing.. nvm... IT fair is coming up, i shud be with gajah or canon... i hope to confirm soon... i better call up Epson and andrew tmr to ask if there is vacancies this time round, shud be able to get better deals there... oh.. i got an impt call to make tmr.. and maybe something to go along with it... sigh... end of another day... 6am again tmr... working life...
gotta meet up with Zexian next week... i wonder why my money for LB is not in yet for this month... hmmm... better check with them...

B4

of soccer, go-karting, seafooding and shopping...
the day started early with a match in sch.. been months since i last touched soccer... naturally i was very enthusiastic and happy finally that there is soccer for me to play despite the early hours. finally i am starting the game... after being overlooked for so long, i'm pissed lah seriously, by the mistreatment... nonetheless i answered the critics by scoring for the team despite being away for so long... some pple they need to appreciate talents more... instead of taking them for granted...

overcasted sky meant that heavy rain was soon to follow, it was a downpour and seriously, it dampened the mood for the outing.. i was in 2 minds whether to make the trip to msia after the rain... still we went... Go karting was fun, despite me being over-enthusiastic in steering and trying out drifting, i had a few 360 degrees spin and the marshalls had to pick me out from the gravel once and restore my dead engine twice... haha... troublemaker... jianzhong and daming are experts at the game, whizzing down the lanes like madman, patrick wasnt too bad either... me, despite my crazy ethics was easily 5th out of the 8 fellas despite being my first attempt at go-karting... placed just behind weijian... despite the few freak accidents above, the real one happened when alvin collided into my rear wheel and his car got lifted up and landed on my shoulder and back... cud have died had it landed on my head... now i got scratches and blue black across my back... nonetheless it was fun.... shopping was on the next list before we made our way to a kelong for our seafood dinner...

we had a crazy ass load of orders... cereal prawns, chilli crab with buns dipped in the delicious chilli sauce, 2Xtepannyaki tofu, mussels, fried you tiao, diced chicken, sambal kang kong, sambal sotong... and beer and coconut drink and ice cream and fruits at the end for less than 20 bucks, talk about living like a king huh... okok... its a damn tired day, gotta wake at 6 to go work tmr... update another time... thailand awaits.. woohoo..

Wala Wala and first day of work

first day of work is just crappy, got stationed outside DBS tower to launch IPO of a new company Thai Beverages - brewers of the famous Thai Chang Beer... boring job, sat there the whole day to hand out prospectus to pple... luckily there was Patrick to with to talk to me... otherwise i will just die... its boring job for 6 bucks an hour, its really just sitting there and getting paid, thou it can be mentally draining too... but good things come out of it too, thou its not Charlotte that i spotted, haha... but i met my good old jc classmate Kailing and my damn good friend Kaisi... good to see them... ages since i saw them too...

went walking ard in city hall with xiwen and patrick after that before making our way down to holland v to meet the gang to go for dinner and wala wala... feels good to be in their company, with a few pints of beer and good live band music by EIC, the only thing lacking is seats... haha...just happy to see everyone again, we shud do this more often guys...

it will be back to work next week but come sunday, soccer and jb go-kart and seafood awaits...

work tmr, couch potato today

tmr i am starting work... at DBS... its merely a 3 day-affair but i'm excited... bored-stiff at home... i wish its a longer term contract thou... but thankfully there is something to do at least... all thanks to Charlotte...

i was shopping for the ingredients for making cheesecake today when she called and said that reporting time for work has been moved back to 10... i was happy to hear her voice... so tempted to ask her for her email so i can talk to her online... but something held me back... i shouldnt... i dunno why... in the end i couldnt find enough of what i needed, the plan to surprise my mum gone up in a smoke...

i spent the rest of the day indulging in the legend of the condor heros... i wanna go back to the olden days, where pple know martial arts and skills... fight and live life as they would, pursue whatever they want and dun give a damn about what else is going on... Love as they like, fight as they like, go wherever they like... so carefree, just like Yang Guo and Xiao Long Nu... their love so deep, heart beating as one... makes pple envious, i wonder if there is such love left in this world of worldly pursuits... true it may be novel and all make believe, but if it can really happen... 自然是好。

I wonder what she is doing now?
姑姑， 你在哪啊?? 过儿好想你啊!!

why... why... why????

why must u come into my life?
i'm merely looking for a job, when i ended up at Kelly Services International Plaza... there, i saw her... pretty and bubbly, friendly and helpful... not to mention enthusiastic and talkative as well... eager to help me and pat to find a job... true enuff, she got us an assignment at DBS for a few days job... damsel in distress - me and pat decided to help her... but agreeing to take up the job...

today, went to sign the secrecy form..
made a call to her prior to that, cos i forgot which level the office is... greeted by her bubbly nature, it certainly brought smile to my face... i think it would light up anyone's too...
other there, the way we talk to each other would made anyone else thought that we are friends for long time... the three of us, pat, me and her... the rest of the applicants just sian diao and talk among themselves... she would be flustered at times, a little impatient but overall still cute and funny... think there wun be a dull moment having her as a friend... me and pat talked to a little while more before leaving... found out that she was actually an intern and we were her first job placements... guinea pigs we are... she said she is younger than all of us and she is studying at smu... wow, we are impressed.. den stupidly asked for her number, which she did not give but told us her office number instead then said "I thought you called earlier in the morning??"
my reply was, i want your hp number... "why?" she asked... i was caught dumbstruck... err... sigh... i'm just lousy at this... she din actually say no thou, she changed topic nonetheless... ask us where we were from and things lidat... i asked the second time, she seemed hesistant... i guess its too short a time to get her number, but it was all a chance meeting... gotta risk it or none at all... we left...

to go meet barney and xiwen at suntec to get grocery for our oreo cheesecake making session... and not to mention mj... the cheesecake actually turned out pretty nice for our first attempt... barney thought we can attempt to sell it... xiwen and i began contemplating with the idea of a pastry shop... more gotta be discussed if anything is to come out of it... Jan is opening a restaurant... maybe can rope her in... maybe its not so nice ah, but its our own efforts that make it sweeter i guess... i dunno which way izzit also...

now back at home... waiting for the champs league finals between Barca and Arsenal... Charlotte keep popping up in my mind... its irritating... Charlotte Lee (Jie Yi? was it or not?) why did u turn up in my life? maybe if i know her for a longer period of time, she might actually give her number? or maybe like what xiwen says, she is just wary or that she got a bf... which is a high possibility, given her character... all i know is if i dunno her by the end of this hols, i might never get the chance again... her internship at KS would finish and i have no means of finding her anymore... this sucks.. i'm embroiled in this shit again...

Recharged and Raring to go

just met xiong, got to know the situation back at office...
i think its really time to start stepping back to office... i cannot neglect the business that i built up myself... though its gonna be awkward and funny for being absent for so long... i think its time that i overcome all those and take the step... they are waiting for me, i made my promise to them that i would help them... its time to fulfill that promise and this time round, i guess i really gotta put in a lot more effort than before cos i got more responsibility now and i need to find the ability to be able to sustain throughout the school term, i just gotta do that, cos its my own business and i gotta start taking charge...

Ganbatte!!!
give myself 3 weeks to pick up all the skills again... i must do it...

Mother's Day

think i am a lousy piece of shit... knowing its Mother's Day today, but i did nothing about it... i know mum doesnt like the hassle of going out to eat or being in crowded place and she doesnt want me to spend money on getting her stuff cos she wun use them, she is the practical kind of person, den all i did was send her an sms wishing her Happy Mother's Day... its shitified... i know, i'm a lousy son... I'll plan for something better next year... seeing that all my friends take their mum out... it just made me feel lousy and disappointed with my lack of efforts... sighh...

tmr i got a job interview, some part time waitering job... not that i mind anyway, but due to the thailand trip smacked in the middle of hols, i think its tough for anyone to wanna employ me... so i am just trying to get some odd jobs done here and there... hope it goes well, i'm bored staying at home...

Swyn and Pat got onto the front page of Newman magazine... wow, they are really damn hot... class and poise and sexy... never dreamt that i would have friends donning the front page of magazines lidat... saw Sandy at bugis the other day, ages since i met her, i still rem the days where we always hang out playing pool and chateh back in JC... mind you, she is good at chateh... and pool... dun play play... last time i was still her match, but now, i think jus waiting to be trashed... will be meeting up with mat and irene soon, long time since i saw them too... sigh, i miss all my friends from jc... everyone seemed busy with their own life...

Hols a bore and damn ex..

Its a bore staying at home... hanging ard aimlessly with nothing to do... yesterday's job hunting came with little results, minus Charlotte who was extremely sweet and offered us a 3 day job with DBS, which me and pat gladly took up. Eventually, we ended up watching MI III, before which, we met Jit and Rachel at the Food Republic, and he told us Ethan died in the show... Curses and Swears!!! but lo and behold, thanks for spoiling the show Jit, it does make it a little more interesting... haha.. you asshole!!! Randy ask me to go for Redbull tmr... since i have nothing on, looking forward to the soccer game in the evening... hope the guys dun tua me man... ages since i played soccer... my rusty legs are itching... B4 guys in the meantime are playing BF2 overnight at Peninsula Plaza... crazy shiet...

Friday is haircut with Joseph, just made an appt... Jo was damn nice lah, its Vesak day and i clean forgotten about it, but he was so nice to sacrifice his holiday, i owe him one... gonna watch Daisy with Jamie in the afternoon... that is to be ironed out... I'm still lazy to head back to LB yet... damn it, i better get cracking... Sunday, the B4 guys are planning to go Msia for Go-Kart... damn eventful eh, but i'm spending before i have any income.. gosh.. i'm low...

I'm going for interview at my mum's friend's restaurant, hope that they will take me in despite my Thai trip.. its becoming a chore when its smack in the middle of the hols... i cant do any shit...
Surprisingly, not a lot of pple are heading down for mambo and i wonder why...

Damn a lot of people seemed to be moving out to stay... Even Addie and Shenhui... jokingly, i asked if i can stay with them, and their answer was "they will promise to make me a perfect houseman!!" some friends they are... tsk tsk.. Pris left for States for the work and travel program, sounds fun... Ying's bday today... i'm such a lousy friend, i had to find out from her blog.

Certified

fully certfied today... feeling was okay i guess, it wasnt anything spectacular cos hantu isnt a perfect dive site.. the poor visibility is sucky, cant see the corals or any shit... but the weather made up for it... the sea, sun, sky, clouds are all so beautiful today... but too bad my cam is low batt.. i din manage to catch anything.. wat a pity... i really miss the sea and the sky... sigh...
now even the course has come to an end, its been fun times with val, han, chowchow, jiax, fanglong and cheryl... boat rides out... dives in the pool and in the see... watching out for each other... attempting to spot and catch fishes at the seabed... its all damn good fun...

i witnessed one of the nicest sunset i ever saw too... the golden sun setting in the sea... sea and sky merging as one... with the sea's reflection... glittering glows from the waves... it was picture perfect.. but well.. too bad.. i hope i can catch some nice fotos in thailand...

am talking to kbabe now... been a long time since i talked to her... she was away in seoul for hols... you lucky shit... and i was busy with moving home and settling some hall stuff and the dives... its fun catching up... am home now... bored and lonely... sigh... miss my friends... miss my hall... miss my neighbours and the people who shared my memories...

Last Night......................

last night in hall... what else is there but nostalgia...
kristian, weifeng and roger leaving... we planned for a bbq together with the b3 and c3 girls... its a get together session... come next year, kristian, weifeng, roger, tzechong, fengyi, addie, justin wun be ard anymore... things are never going to be the same ever again, we are not going to get the chance to stay together again... its really saddening...

everyone felt a lot just now, it wasnt as fun or nonsensical as the previous gatherings we had... maybe because we knew that it was going to be the last, ok, maybe not the last but it will be the last one where everyone is staying together, coming together... there seemed to be something on everyone's mind, waiting to be said, to be mentioned but no one said anything... everyone is just trying to enjoy each other's company.... i took quite a few photos in memory of this moment... i cant bear to leave them, if there is one reason why i cant bear to leave hall, its because of the people that is staying here. next year is probably going to be my last anyway, i will be graduating with the rest of the gang... save for patrick and barney... i bet i will probably tear... i know i am that kind... i miss my friends... things are going to be different with roger, weifeng and kristian not ard in my wing... minus yingying, fengyi and addie and tzechong and justin next year... its gonna be worse... i just cant stop bitching about it... if there is a chance, i will be wishing that we can all stay together, near each other next time or at the very least keep in contact and go out always... friends, they matter most to me...

i remember that B4 outing for buffet and bowling, after that night, Kristian sent an sms to everyone, hoping that we will stay in contact... its those emo kinda thing but i guess everyone just wish that it will happen... we are closely knitted... B4 05/06... how i wished time will stop here and not move on... but i am being childish... but at the very least i will make efforts to keep in contact with everyone... but working life is going to be different and difficult... but it can be done... right guys? we still got eusoffianos... b3 and c3... i'm gonna miss u guys too...

Kim was being so funny, i helped her carry her stuff yesterday, she packed all her books into one box, and couldnt lift it... in the end, i had to help her... and its felt like at least 70-80kg... her dad was scolding her for letting me carry by myself... haha.. he made her feel so bad that he wanted to treat me to a meal... its one of those funny, cute incidents...

past few days been really hectic... packing up to go home and shuttling between diving lessons, i am taking them with val, chow, fanglong, cheryl and jiax... its been really tiring and exhaustive... sigh... tmr is the first dive in hantu... cant wait but really worried to dive in open sea... but the prospect of diving in kotao is really tempting... cant wait to see the sharks, turtles and corals... i guess i gotta suck it thru... i shall update again if i live tmr... tmr is voting too... sigh, otherwise i can spend the night with the rest of them... my fave guys and girls... i am gonna miss them so so much... and everyone is going away too... chances of meeting up is not high i guess... kim is going to germany on thurs and she is gonna meet up with jan and gracie in france... wow... everyone on their separate ways... if only we can stay together forever....

i'm being childish again... sigh...

Never so long...

its been a good 3 weeks since i last blogged... almost forgotten the feeling of blogging... or rather... laziness is starting to creep in... last 3 weeks been crazily absurd... getting back the term papers and cramming for exams... this sem been disasterous... i never got worse grades for my term papers before... all Cs and B-, just what the hell am i doing... been totally demoralised before exams started... didnt even feel like studying for it... just like what Charles says, feel like quitting school to go out start our business or start working... sentiments exactly bro...

reading week has been spent playing games, takraw and everything else except the most crucial thing - studying.. panicking seems to be my cup of tea, last min work and studies, though many a times, i tried to change that bad habit... but well, they say leopard never changes its spots... i dun change mine for studies... gimme other stuff, i would gladly put in more effort.. first 2 papers were alright i guess, when i say alright, it just means do-able, nothing more... soci of power is the worst, studied for the weekend, but i suffered from mental block, nothing went in and i went to the exam hall with nothing in my mind, no info, no concepts for a difficult level 3000 paper.. how much better can you get... 3101 din fare much better, at least i was quite well prepared for it, but humans do erred right, mine was serious, i think i wrote outta point for 2 out of 3 essays... mixing up weber and marx's concept.. my gawd... i am praying not to fail or dabao man... last paper was alright still, but i dun expect anything much from there cos its a very popular soci mod, i guess everyone will do well and i will just fall into the mediocre group. but still thanks to Ames for staying up and helping me revise... she is a great help. Babe, thanks for listening to me complaining about my papers when they are a disaster and dishing out advices and words of comfort, thats why you are my babe yah? haha... Sigh, never felt this lousy for exams before... damn it... just feel like quitting school and working now...

i got the thailand trip coming up, cant wait to go diving.. must give renhan a reply by today... which means the whole of this week will be commited to diving lessons if i do... sigh.. cant wait to put on the tank and swim among the fishes and corals... money is a factor thou, heck... i think i shud just get it once and for all... hope i can find a job tt pays well for this hols... i wanna go back to LB too, time to put in some effort there... funny, i've been thinking a lot about business lately, about what i wanna go into.. i think roping in roger, kristian and weifeng will be good... they are like-minded anyway and roger seemed really keen... Charles got some bright sparks, think he is waiting to discuss with me.. cant wait to jump into the business world..

funny, that i actually sleep lesser now compared to exams period.... i'm awakwe for 2 days already and i dun feel tired... i must be going crazy... cant imagine, i was sleeping half the time when studying for exams, otherwise i would be talking to DT who was in Shanghai and now holidaying in Seoul... my gawd.. how lucky.. thanks my dear girl for keeping my sanity during this period of time, i was looking forward to seeing her online more than studying... she reminded me that there is some sanity left in this world... started moving my stuff home, thanks to my dear cousin who made her way down to help me out with her car... haha.. damn it, when we reach home den i realised that i left the house key in hall... wat an idiotic ass...

i shall stop for now... youtube is my best friend for now, totally hooked and engaged on it..
Nan Desuka???
Onizuka, Fuyutsuki, Kikuchi and Nanako is calling me... laters...