War of the World

Why so many people out of love lately....
I dunno if i am considered in or out... mine is dubious...
2 of my gal pals are out of love suddenly... both of them on the same night somemore...
i suddenly got loads on my hand... one keep asking me out to go supper and drinking... the other ask me out to spend time with her... i obliged... cos i know the feeling...

So we went to watch War of the World... its the opening... directed by Steven Spielberg... it should be something good
its kinda cool... but the ending is rather abrupt... disappointing i guess... at least to me...
Christina is born in Singapore but has HK parents... and she jus came back from HK... so she was showing me where to go next week when i was there...

Lok Yan and Benny (both from HK) are ard in the area when we finished the movie... So i decided to introduce them to each other... plus i am a Hong Kong lover... we had much fun chatting man... though i am finding it hard to pick up some of the more chim Cantonese... but i am learning things....

Anyway, we formed the "Chiu Bao" gang... the 4 of us... and decided to go HK together one day... woohoo... so cool...

I am still waiting to watch Mr and Mrs Smith... Xiao ben ben... are u reading this???

(PS: Chiu Bao means very fashionable... the hippest phrase in HK now)

Have I lost my mind?

It just wasn't right and it shouldnt have come so far... but i just couldn't help it but think of her at times... It would be awfully wrong to say that I think of her day and night... but now... when I start to think of her more and more... its kinda scary because it wasn't suppose to be so... I had to be objective, had to take a neutral position despite my liking for her...

If it is so easy, it wouldn't be called love...

Everyday, i find myself sinking deeper and deeper... I had thought that by going to the Arts camp, it would take my mind off her for a while, but I was wrong... I thought of her at the most absurd times... in the middle of games... when i have free time, i would start wondering if she is ok, what she is doing... did she take her meals and stuff lidat... memories of the times we spend together started flashing by...

I started feeling disappointed and sad when she couldn't go out with me... it is just not right because she is attached...

Why can't I love someone whom i really love... this is so unfair!!!!!
God!!! Send me an angel..... saaaaaaveeeeeeeeeeeee meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee..........

Arts-tacy... Artzitified!!!

Arts-tacy ah, Wa bo jiak
CID ah, Wa Bueh Kia
Mai yo, Mai yo, Mai yo...
Ai yo, Ai Ga Ga yo...

Arts camp has just ended... but as usual it has left deep deep memories for me to look back upon...
First thing first... joining the camp as a councillors and joining as a freshie is definitely a different experience... different kind of fun... Wanna thank Jasmine for pestering me to join and help out... I guess it is not for her constant pestering... I would have missed this out... seriously... gotta thank her properly when i see her...

Cos of this camp... i got to know people who were in my camp last year... like Wan Tsin, Swi Lin, Swee Giang, Yu Yan, Xin Yan... even got to meet Chee Kiong from NTU, who was in 2nd Coy last time and we did duty together...

Last year: Sutcliffe, Venor
This year: Romanov, Remus
Next year: ???

Thought Jasmine would be with me during the camp cos she is afterall the only person i know in the OG i was assigned to... but she is busy with stuff... but i soon got to know Paul, Yonghe, Lok Yan aka "Leng Lui", Pei Juan aka Funky, Yi Ya, Alvin... What makes things difficult in the first place was that... I didnt go for the precamp nor did i stayed over the previous night... its my first time meeting them just as the first time i am meeting the freshies... How is it possible to bridge 2 groups of strangers... job of a councillor is not easy...

cool and calm was what they described me as when we first met, but as the days gone by... i warm up and open up to them.. became ON, crazy, funny and full of crap and entertainment... I am glad that i did anyway, cos i think all the nonsense i did, influenced them and made the whole OG very on and unified and bonded well together... but it wouldnt have been possible without them oso... they are quite on and funny by nature... so that helps... I think i will really miss them... hope the OG outings will come soon...

all the songs we sang... all the cheers we did... all the stupid jokes we cracked... the supper we ate... the games we played... the campus tour, amazing race, night games, sentosa day and the wargames... not forgetting clubbing night... it was so fun so fun...

glad justin and lionel wanna come to eusoff... they will be a great addition to the hall... plus we became really a closely knitted grp of friends.. i really appreciate them..i really love them...

this is a song that the councillors composed for them... thou its kinda like mean but its all in the name of fun... i really love it...

You, doing that thing you do
Breaking my heart when you lose the challenges, like you always do~~~
And you, told me to be cool
You always have to listen to my naggings, machiam like a fool~~~
And I try and try hard to make you high
But its just so hard to do *woohoo*
Only on clubbing night
Everytime on clubbing night
You dance like the monkeys from the Zoo~~!!!

Members of Remus, Romanov 2005 :
Paul
Yi Ya
Lok Yan
Pei Juan
Jingpei
Jasmine
Alvin
Yonghe
Lionel
Aaron
Justin
Benny
Guan Liang
Wanping
Angeline
Rachel
Ling Fang
Jacinta
Lianne

I dun think i missed anyone out... I will add it in if i do... I really love the letters u all wrote for me... Love you Remus 2005'

They asked if i wanna be house ic for next year camp... i think i will say yes if they dun mind me... i think i will... for now... i think i will go for O'week also... for Arts...

She Knows... =P

I think i am quite lousy leh... (you duo lousy jiu you duo lousy)
She knows about it... long ago even... thou i suspected that she might suspect... I thought by being objective and neutral... she wouldn't suspect anything.. but LOVE makes one think stupidly anyway...

I am just "ben ben" like her...

really cannot make it... and i told her this blog.. i oso dunno why... zhen de shi you duo "ben" jiu you duo "ben"... zhen de leh...

wonder how will things move from here... she is afterall still attached to him...

Untitled~~~

Good Morning Jingpei,

How are you feeling today? Better?
We went out last night... for dinner... Novena... She said she would like to stay at Novena... Suburb, not too crowded but not too much HDB also... kinda nice feeling...
Funny, i seemed to remember everything she has said or done... it just registered automatically in my mind.

We ate at Magic Wok, a Thai-Chinese Restaurant... the food is not too bad... and reasonable priced too.. except that i noticed that all the waiters are muslims... she said its because the food is halal... tt makes sense... she is just that thoughtful, isn't she...

after that... we shopped ard at United Square, Toys 'R Us.. had quite a bit of fun there... rumaging through the toys there... after that... we went to Secret Recipe to eat dessert... but after walking so far... only to find that the shop has closed down...

Could see that she is kinda disappointed... she was looking forward to the cheesecake... marble cheesecake to be exact... but she said we eat together next time... they have branches at PS and Bishan... (weird... i didnt make a mental note on that.. dunno how come i remembered..)

We ate at Carlifornia instead... a modern looking cafe house with a nice ambience... dunno why i suddenly become melancholic... maybe its because i grab her hand by mistake earlier and she tried to shake it off... but i swear it wasnt on purpose... it was because she was going the wrong way den i was trying to pull her back.. maybe she didnt even pay much attention to it also...

I just wonder what she is taking me as now... I like to be direct on these kinda issues... but I dunno why... I can't seem to bring it up... maybe for the fear of not wanting to pressurise her anymore... giving her extra burden... and its not exactly the right time also... Just gotta play the waiting game i guess... be there for her...

She said i pampered her by sending her home everytime... she has never been treated this way before... I was pretty aghast... How could anyone not send his gf home one... pretty disgusted by her ex-bfs attitude... esp where she is stay is kinda quiet... It was otherwise quite an enjoyable outing.. i wished i hadn't become melancholic at the last part...

Sometimes, she is really so nice, just like a gf... dunno if she is trying to say something... but i guess she is just her... someone i like...

Funny, all my blogs are about her recently...

Anyway, we are suppose to go watch Mr and Mrs Smith... i wonder when...
next week... i will be away at Arts Camp... lack of helpers... i offered to help out... at the same time can make some new contacts... shud be quite cool i think... but will be suffering from the lack of internet... I wun be staying throughout i guess...

Thanks nana, my jie, she purposely said she is too tired to join us... so that i can have a one to one outing with her... my jie is just so thoughtful also...

WE ARE GOING OUT!!!

Yesterday, she asked me... are we still going for movies???
WOOHOO!! so happy... its gonna be saturday...!! but she said she dun wanna go back too late this sat... so she meet me for dinner...
Movie, we watch on weekday next week... it just heightens my happiness.. more chance of hanging out with her...

Initially, she asked shud we ask nana along... or just the 2 of us only... I stammered... and suggested just 2 of us?

She agreed... and said we shall meet nana another time... I dunno what it might actually mean... but i sure hope its something positive... at the very least, she dun mind hanging out with me alone... I'm H A P P Y on that...

Today, she took the initiative to sms me and asked me hows my day... wow!! how cool is that....!!!

By the way, check this out ----> http://www.lcbtv.com/flash/movie/tonghua.swf

***a gentle reminder.... KEEP IT SLOW!!!!

That fateful night...

The night where she officially broke up with her bf...
I dunno to feel happy or feel sad... to see a relationship turn out this way... evil it may seem if i am happy about it, but in reality... I am not exactly happy as well...
I like her, but does she?
maybe, i am merely nothing more than just a friend who is there for her when she needed someone to talk to...

I have a fight on my hand, to fight for the girl i like... Everything is so much an unknown... pretty much scary...

One thing that she wish most : "juz be himself i dun wanna change anyone to suit me, juz like i didn't like it when i had to change myself to suit him" (quote has been modified to protect her identity)

She noticed that I was happier compared to the day when i was terribly upset... but i told her i was merely blocking out the memory... she didnt know what i was blocking out... I had secretly wished she knew, when is she going to realise that its her...

I gotta take it slow... I just gotta... I asked her for Mr and Mrs Smith... She say she will gimme a reply by thurs... We'll see... We'll see...

She Likes...

Been a while since i blogged, has been so very lazy that i dun even feel like typing anything for the past few days... but a twist in the events made me feel that i just had to pen it down...
I was totally bored today, suppose to go and work at sentosa for 10/hr deal but fell thru cos winson contacted the person late... nonetheless, turned out to be a blessing in disguise...

THE REASON: i just smsed her in the afternoon if she would like to go out, and she agreed.. we met up... how cool is that...

Met at northpoint starbucks for coffee, but she was initially suppose to meet her friends for dinner at chinatown, but maybe because of one reason or another.. she agreed to dinner with me... tough choice... we pondered very long before deciding to try out the food at the new Marina Square... A nicely renovated food court with a beautiful night skyline of the CBD area was our backdrop... with a gentle breeze, how nice was that...

After dinner, we made our way to Esplanade, there was a live performance, that guy can really sing and a 50+ years old auntie was obliging to dance along with him, how enjoyable, i could swear that she was enjoying herself... 2015, end of performance, we made our way over to Fullerton's Baker's Inn to enjoy our dessert. Peach Soda and Profitero was our menu (if i rem the names correctly). how nice was that scene, joking and sharing silly stuff, we spent hours there, i swear i could spend the whole nite there... taking silly photos of her spiced up the times spent.

close to eleven, she decide that its time to go before there was no transport home, walked past CityLink, den remembered that there was MidniteSale, a chance to hang out longer... I think i couldnt bear to pass it up, but i was tired... i was worried that she was too... but she decided to stay and we can share cab home later... Kinda Cool... we hanged ard... Having fun, Her company was so enjoyable... it was like the last time i was out with Maria... teasing and crapping... I might be rude to say, but any outsiders would easily mistaken us for a couple... That would have been such a sweet dream... Finally, I sent her home on a cab and here I am penning this down... almost never had the chance, cos my cab driver almost dozed off and crashed, luckily he didnt...

She likes....
...Mangoes
...Jap food
...Chicken Wings
...dun eat pig organs
...likes to eat porridge
...don't really eat hot stuff
...loves cheesecake esp from Secret Recipe and Bakerz Inn
...shopping
...travelling (been to Japan, Australia (Melbourne, Perth, Sydney), America)
...Jazz
...enjoying the night scene (riverside, night buildings...)
...taking fotos
...Le Coq Sportif, Forever21, Fox, Giordano, Levi's, Adidas and any other brands that has nice track pants. Dun really like U2,Topshop, New Balance...)

Will never forget this first date for a long long time... not all the stupid things she has done, so silly but so endearing... She said i look like Ronald Susilo... 40% likeness... hehehz... but i didnt tell her that more people said i look like Kun Da(Niu Nai) from Energy and Li Wei from dunno which band... =P

End of Exhibition...

Didn't know doing an exhibition can be so tiring... especially when you are running one for your own business... the stress just seem to get into you eh? been rather busy for the past 5 days... feeling the stress of not selling enough to break even...

Luckily, on the very last day, i struck gold and managed to did some incredible sales and got some valuable contacts who could be my potential consumers or even biz partners... hard work paid off... phew!!!

Saw Vivian and Johan over the past few days, working on a different exhibition thou... PC fair... it was jammed packed and they were really busy, din get much chance to talk to them, but still these pallies managed to squeeze in some time to visit me, quite touched... saw a couple of other people as well, like junyao and a few others at the pc fair, all as promotors... saw Swyn too, the pretty girl who is Jamie's friend, had a chance to talk to her, but I didnt take it, i guessed she recognise me just as much as i recognise her. Maybe i am just stupid not to even just say hi, maybe i will regret, pray that i will see her in sch some time. Maybe seeing her at the fair will be an excuse to talk to her also. In case you are wondering, she was one of the finalist for Miss Singapore Universe.

The greatest surprise is seeing Wanjing, my meimei with a sexy husky voice... its been so long since i last saw her... She's at the creative booth with vivian, but i din see her till the last day, kinda dumb, well... at least i found her after so long... That silly mei gave me a very nice lime green creative ZEN band, I like it... Should catch up with her soon...

Kaiming, Bangzhi and Xiaoyu and me stayed over at Junxiong's house and played mahjong throughout the night, a kind of post exhibition celebration i guess... had a cookout session, really enjoyable... and played RISK, haven't played for such a long time... just got home... kinda tired now... another day... i got loads more to do...

Pathetic Results

I was expecting 1 or even 2 As really... funny thing is that i just dreamt about them the night before results were released... turned out to be pretty disappointing... 2Bs, a B minus and 2 C plus... everything was downgraded by at least a grade... to think i actually felt better after this exam than last sem's...

true that I got plans sorted out, results wouldn't matter that much to me... but i guess the winning spirit in me think otherwise... though results might not seem very impt to me or highly important to most other people... There is a tinge of disappointment that i didn't do as well as i thought i would...

I don't mind not doing Honours really, but at least i wanna grad with degree of merit rather than just a normal degree... that would seem a lot more justifiable... Now, my aim is to keep my cap above 3 and grad with a merit degree... That has been added to the must-do list of things to be achieved...

American Liberalism vs Asian Values

Just watched all three episodes of American Pie, an American teen flick which depicts of teenage lives of 5 dudes during their transition from high school to college and finally one of them getting married...

Its pretty amazing how liberal they are concerning certain issues of sex... they actually have house parties organised with the aim of getting everybody drunk and having sex with anyone whom they can chance upon... American Liberalism at its best i guess... Somehow, I remembered that such parties are available during my jc days, organised by my friends in school and such... but I am not really sure about the sex part thou... Think Asians are still constraint by the Asian values, which is a good thing still...

Sex is not the main issue which i wanna pen down here, but it seems that most people associate liberalism with sex anyway, but personally, I felt that their care-free way of life and their take things as they come attitude is somewhat Singaporeans could take a few pointers from... Not follow blindly but I think Singaporeans need to relax a little, too much emphasis on studies, its not about results anymore, not entirely anyway... Times have changed, people need to realise, but sadly they don't, still indulging in their get good results and get a good job with a good pay attitude...
Sadly... but truly...