Last Day of the year

Today is the last day of the year, i am sure that most people will be out, going to celebrate the countdown, hanging out with their friends or loved ones... but me...? stuck in hall, clearing accounts for the IHG season. I am actually feeling sick of dance, despite for all the fun that i had during all the practices... perhaps its due to the intensity of the trainings, which left me totally drained at the end of each day. weekends became the thing that i look forward to most, cos it will be my rest day.

On the other side of Christmas, everything looked much more terrible now, firstly school is starting... I am wondering how can i cope with everything now... and its not helping when there are no interesting modules to take, or rather no modules to take for this sem. This makes the sem looked much more difficult to get by... Takraw is next week, it also mark the beginning of at least a month long of camping in school. I gotta think of a way to go home somehow and work for judy.

Like Christmas, everyone seemed to have something planned already, only me, so lonely... i think i need a break from everything, need some quiet and private time alone.. maybe staying in hall is really no life...

Looking back on this year, i wondered what have i accomplished.. like nothing really significant, years come by and past you in a blink of an eye, true there are many moments which were etched in my mind, but they dun seemed to be leaving a major impact in my life, i wonder what could be done to change that. Think i need more happening things in my life... or maybe i am just feeling nostalgic now...

The Same O' Heartwrenching Story

They say lightning never strikes the same place twice, but it just did today...
Last year, We played RH in the semis and we lost in the penalty shootout cos we couldn't finish them off...
This year, we nailed them in the coffin but they did it again... to us... penalty shootout...

Rain poured before the game, ensuring that we have a muddy pitch to start the match with. We didnt start particularly well, but we begin to dominate once it got going... what omar? what nasir and not to mention tweety and weixiang... I got a bad tackle from Nasir which almost resulted in a penalty... but it never came, i wonder why, all my legitimate penalty claims were brushed aside by the referees this year... Later on, Alvin got a scruffed shot and its 2/3 thru when roger sent in a cross and i latched it on and scored with a header.. beating tweety and finally laying the ghost to rest... the myth around him all shattered and i knew i can get more... I celebrated with a dive in the mud... much to the delight of the supporters. The year 4s, i thought i had extended your retirement... when i remembered vividly before the match, renhan came up to me and said i wanna play in the finals and my reply was "I will make sure you play in the finals."

And I told weifeng, you do your job... i will do mine... and i did it.. and there was Roger who came over last night and said to me... please score, it will make defenders' work easier... Second half, we knew they were going to come at us, they have nothing to lose... but we were not to be trifle with, we started brightly, carrying on the momentum... within mins, we broke down their defence again, Pillay almost scored when his header clipped the post. And i scored one more when Yong beat tweety but the ball got stuck in the mud at the goal-line. It didnt matter who scored at that point, i thought we had the game sealed. After that, Kenneth Yong was breaking down their defence with ease and he had 4 great chances to put the game away but it didn't fall for him... 2 went over the bar, 1 on each side of the post, so close... i was sent thru once and i should have side-stepped tweety but he came crashing into me and the chance went begging... Then, it happened, Pillay did the most unbecoming thing when he chose to pass back to weifeng in the water-logged pitch and the ball got stuck, weifeng tried to stop the interception by omar but only succeeded in giving away a penalty which they converted. It was all the worse when we specifically addressed this issue during the halftime team talk - never, never, never pass the ball back. I think we lost shape after that and they managed to equalise just minutes before the final whistle, our worst fears confirmed. I had a bad feeling after that, some kind of those deja vu feeling... I didnt want a repeat of last year's semis to happen again...

extra time, we had the chance to kill they off when we won a freekick at the edge of the penalty box, Adrian, Royston, stood over the ball and i kept shouting to royston to pass the ball to me cos i had a clear shot on goal. but he chose to ram in into the wall, much much much to my anger... den Daniel came in for me... due cramps from over running, i was praying for a miracle which never came and it came down to penalties again which we lost 4-1... It was heartwrenching... when it was all over, i could only turn my back and walked to the opposite side of the pitch and teared... It was all the more painful when we were leading and we threw it away, all the more painful when we lost 2 years in a row to penalty shootout...

On the way back, Pillay walked alone, i know how he feels, he must be broken cos he caused the penalty and failed to track nasir's run for the equaliser... i know exactly that when it was my poor finishing last year which led to our exit.. he must have been feeling the most guilty... Kenneth must be feeling no better too for the chances that fell in his way... The better team did not win again, for 2 years in a row... Temasek will have it easy against them, i just know, i bet it will be a trashing handed out to them, and i hope it will be so... I've never felt so much heartaches from soccer before...

I just felt shortchanged, we didnt deserve this kind of shit... we deserve better.. Temasek was so afraid to play us, but now they had it easy... RH.. c'mon, what crap... painful for the people who are graduating, weifeng, roger, kristian, cheekz, han, tze chong... the team will never be the same again, its so painful that i dun even know if i can take playing again next year... i really dunno... I'm sorry guys, i couldn't extend your retirement... And the guys like barney, daming, hiep and so many others who couldnt even get a game or get named on the subs bench and even patrick and ben who got injured... its just so terrible... maybe we should seriously fuck the should have beens and its the process shit, we let slipped and its our fault, who doesnt wanna win... i'm despaired and the images just kept running through over and over again... agonising..

Danlin was very sweet, she came over and tried to comfort me... and just gave me a hug before she left... Yasi came over and gave me a packet of chocolate biscuits and there were hugs from ben, patrick, naj, jerraine, derrick and even my jnr minwei who plays for RH (who said they din even deserve to go thru) and comforting words all around... These, guys, can never make up for the agony of missing out.. when we know that deep down inside, we wanted this gold more than anything else... Soccer will never be the same again... i think...

Job's done

we beat them 6-1, had six different scorers scoring, tt spells good for the team and i got on the scoresheet too with a typical striker's goal and handed out a brace of assists. the only pity was that i din score more, not that i had many chances anyway... As RH drew KR, tt means we will meet RH in the semis... but this time round the story will be different... i will personally send them out of the tournament, their arrogance is annoying me... and it will be put to rest...

I think Renhan is like a big brother to me, he knows me well and understands what i am thinking... even without saying much, but by observing, he can tell.. like how i play, how i like the balls to be... stuff like that... its a pity he wun be ard next year anymore thou...

Its a lonely xmas, with no dates... so sian...

12 hours of training...

from the title, enough said... Soccer, swimming, takraw and touch rugby, one after another, it was a day out at the SRC... super duper shag...

Cursed Temasek scored 15 against KE VII, they seemed determined not to let us top the group... Raffles' freakish 1 - 0 win over Sheares almost confirmed their place in the semis, their arrogance is something which i cannot tolerate... I will take them out if i meet them on the pitch i swear.. the happiest thing today is that I got a pleasant surprise when i checked my results. I was peeking thru the gaps of my fingers at the computer screen and it reads:

Leisure, Recreation, Tourism: B-
Film and History: B
Soci of Mass Media: B
Soci of Pop Culture: B+
Soci of Research Methods: B+

Cap for this sem is 3.6, my highest so far, surprising even to me when i din even have an A, cos the last time when i got an A, i only got 3.3 at the end, but my overall cap average was pulled up to 3.3, so i am pretty happy already...
okie, that was good considering the fact that i was expecting a string of Cs... so i cant complain, i guess its the good karma that i get for returning the phone yesterday, thou i still feel that its a pity... Takraw form is picking up, made some excellent plays during touch today and got praised and soccer is doing fine, its a good day all round today i guess, just freaking tireeedddddddd and still feeling pity over the phone...

Found a phone

I found a phone today... i think its a Nokia 6255... i am not very good with the model names but i shouldnt be too far off from that.. its a clam shell phone with camera functions... It was just lying around outside the toilet... but eventually, i returned it to the owner... think maybe i was stupid to a certain extent, who on earth find phones like that lying around outside toilets???

Maybe i should make a mental note next time that I will keep the phone for my own use... haha...
Maybe with my stupidity, it will bring me some good karma... like better results this sem when the results is announced tmr... I will be hoping for that seriously, and for our soccer to win IHG this year together with sepak and touch, i think i will be seriously gladdened...

But anyway, damnit, i think i am falling ill...

It has began...

It was a good match, end to end... you could feel it, the intensity, pressure, passion, pride, determination... all engraved on the faces and hearts of the players... Final score reads 0 - 0, but there is much more to it than it suggests... i had to legitimate penalty claims unawarded.. one half chance which went begging... seriously, there is little in difference between the 2 sides, we were stronger in defence and attack while their midfield is dominating... the only surprise factor is that Jit Tong is awfully quiet... i wonder if he is building up for later...

Capacity crowd for the first game of this year's IHG season and what a way better than to start with the good old Eusoff-Temasek rivalry... Seriously, we shud have killed them off... we had more clear cut chances... but they had their fair share of chances as well... It was end to end action and i had to limp off the pitch again... I am really too tired to type more... not to say about the details, but Wanyuan admitted pulling me down... and got turned by me... well, i put 1 up against my senior.. haha...

As Renhan says it best, we took the swagger outta them and make them panic... but i say, we should send them running with their tails in between their legs next time round, that can be done if we watch Tong and his magic...

El Classico

Just came back from dance practice... i must say that i am getting a hang of it, though i must improve on my remembering of the dance sequence, i have no problems with the steps and all but the remembering of the sequence is kinda like killing me... making me disjointed... but nonetheless, its some kind of improvement compared to the start.

Kristian is asking Shaun to join Eusoffianos... and i dun understand why, looking at the reason why Eusoffiano was started in the first place, was for this group of us to stay in contact and enjoy our football together... at the rate things are progressing, its soon becoming a feeder squad for the hall team... Nothing against Shaun, for he is as good as a lad who enjoys his football, I am seriously not too eager about the fact that so many players are asked to join... there are already tons of forwards and midfielders in the team, i mean if there are defenders who wanna join, i dun mind, but this overloading of players, is going to compromise many people's playing time... look! the purpose of setting up this team is to let us play our soccer, not spend time watching soccer from the sides...

Tmr is the Big Game, the most eagerly anticipated game of IHG soccer, Eusoff vs Temasek... I dunno why the atmosphere for IHG is not there yet this year, but what a way to start it off by facing our closest rivals. Maybe to others, this match may seemed inconsequential, but to me, i would like to put one up against TH, nothing to do with the fact that most of my jc teammates are there, but because i love Eusoff... I hope to get us a win, think that will boost the confidence of the players and do us a great deal of good. Let's hope things turn out good tmr...

Another Level

Things have moved on to another level now, next week is the beginning of IHG for the Soccer boys, everything seemed ill-prepared up till now... Everyday has been training and training and dancing and dancing... i hardly get a moment of respite. Think its starting to take its toil on me. feeling tired and lethargic... not including the sunburnt and all... But its been good fun all the same. I just forget all the tiredness and shackness once i step into the courts or the fields, no matter how tired, you just wanna give it all and enjoy every moment of it. At least there is no pressure of school work. Dance been the same thing, though at times, I can be dreading to go for it, but i know that once i am there, its a good deal of shit and laughter, that really makes things a lot more bearable.... Its been a good holiday so far.

Today, we went down to NTU for sepak and soccer friendly against Hall Nine, our friendly counterpart from NTU. Takraw wise, i think they have a lot of catching up to do. we simply whacked them left, right, centre. What was more significant was the soccer match that was coming up, they are suppose to be one of the Kingpins Hall in sports in NTU and soccer is one of their forte. Not forgetting that they have my buddies Yizhou and Zhiwei there and our old boy Philip. That makes them a formidable foe. match ended in 2-2 draw, with much controversies and all, of course, i am the victim again with no less than 3 vicious tackles. I think i am just a magnet for people to take it out on me. got kneed in my stomach, suffered a back kick from their player and a reckless tackle for behind, that put me out of the game. I guess that just sums it up. Only regret is that I didnt manage to get a clean contact for my diving header from a perfect cross from Roger and a perfectly timed run... what a pity. and my freekick which left the keeper stranded and my teammates celebrating, thinking that it went it when it just skimmed the crossbar... Oh my... Renhan got a bad injury, i hope he recovers in time for next week. I need to rest my leg too...

Tmr there is training, soccer, then takraw then touch at night. Another full day... Should be fun amidst all the tiredness...

Costly holidays

been almost a week since the hols... its been training, training, dancing and more dancing... things are not helping when no meals are provided and we have to eat out of our own pockets. Its soon burning a big hole in my bank account, especially, when i bought a new pair of boots just now, Lotto. $111. My most expensive pair of boots yet... looks totally stylish and cool, can't wait to test it out, but the tinge of can't bear to is stopping me.

with some glitches with the dances, I am down to WLL and Xingling's dances, tts a little relief for me cos IHG season is early this year and i am having problems coping with it, this is not helping when i'm a slow learner, makes things a lot more worse for me... Upcoming friendlies with RH and Hall 9 looks fun, should get me into better shape, i should be building up on my fitness. That just reminded me that i have to take my IPPT soon.. *groan*

Randy got a few jobs for me, good thing that is, providing me with some pocket money to tide things over, i need more jobs like this. Melvin's coaching is put on hold first, i need to talk to him, the whole jan's sat is burnt due to DP, seems like there is no way i can start my coaching until after that. I hope judy's councillor's session wun clash with school or IHG. i need to earn more bucks... guess thats all for now, till i got more things to update. And i just received a call which made me really pissed, dun feel like talking about it now... perhaps next time, i'm sure it wun be the last...

Start of Hell month

hols is here... lotsa things to be done... trainings, dancings, earning money, trainings, dancing, earning money...

oh i must remember to send in my laptop for servicing, its getting conked up, i wished zhihao will be free soon thou...

there is the survey that i am helping prof with, i must get it completed soon also... treasury work for smc and block... meeting up with people and the modules preference...

I wonder how girlgirl is now, havent heard from her since she left for Manila..

just now on the way back, dad sounded tired and weary, i wonder why, there seems to be something on his mind, but he didnt say anything, just said that he is also helping his friend sell banner van, those similar to kangroo kind of mini vans... I cant help but think if i have been an unfilial son... there seem to be a lot of things which i haven done for my family... sighh... i wish i have so much more power to do the things i wanna do... and lift the burden off my family...

I feel useless...