Hols here

Exams' over on monday, the first thing i set out to do is MJ... how no life can i be, but its a relief thou... even thou the last paper seemed like a disaster again, its just those can't wait to get it over kind of feeling that brings relief more than anything. I am seriously worried about what kind of results i am going to get back... its not gonna be anything fantastic, i'll be happy with average grades and not anything fantastically lousy will do for me...

All the things that i mentioned earlier are coming up.... stuff to handle for IHG and dance and trainings... spoke to weijian about withdrawing from 1 dance, but they seemed to think that i can cope, i wonder how so... when i know myself best... oh well, i need to find a replacement for myself... I hope louis will take it up... the clashes in trainings and dances seems almost impossible for me to make it for dancing... i dunno anymore... i need to earn some cash and fast...

I need to meet up with a lot of people soon, i've been neglecting them... and there are lots of movies out there recently, i am going to watch Harry Potter, Zanuthra, King Kong... woohoo... but the feeling of hols is not here yet, its been hell lot shit of MJ these 2 days... i wonder if i have a life... i just cleaned up my room a little, more needs to be done obviously... think i am going Zouk tonight... seems to be a lot of things on my mind, but i dunno what to say or where to stay... its just like a blob hanging there... irritating.... till then, laters pensieve....

Some kind of innocence...

some snippets:

Jingpei - Feel 100%> 常乐... Will the arms of Hope surround me?? Should I call out to angels?? Save my Sanity.... says:
i going for supper...

Jingpei - Feel 100%> 常乐... Will the arms of Hope surround me?? Should I call out to angels?? Save my Sanity.... says:
ttyl

v e r ª ~ * | | I MADE IT!!!!!!!!!! ♪hallelujah, hallelujah, hallelujah♪ says:
okok...

v e r ª ~ * | | I MADE IT!!!!!!!!!! ♪hallelujah, hallelujah, hallelujah♪ says:
tata!

v e r ª ~ * | | I MADE IT!!!!!!!!!! ♪hallelujah, hallelujah, hallelujah♪ says:
actually supper's bad for u.....

Jingpei - Feel 100%> 常乐... Will the arms of Hope surround me?? Should I call out to angels?? Save my Sanity.... says:
why leh??

v e r ª ~ * | | I MADE IT!!!!!!!!!! ♪hallelujah, hallelujah, hallelujah♪ says:
eh.....

v e r ª ~ * | | I MADE IT!!!!!!!!!! ♪hallelujah, hallelujah, hallelujah♪ says:
get fat or smthing.....

v e r ª ~ * | | I MADE IT!!!!!!!!!! ♪hallelujah, hallelujah, hallelujah♪ says:
hahahz

Jingpei - Feel 100%> 常乐... Will the arms of Hope surround me?? Should I call out to angels?? Save my Sanity.... says:
doesnt matter lah

v e r ª ~ * | | I MADE IT!!!!!!!!!! ♪hallelujah, hallelujah, hallelujah♪ says:
ahaaahah..

Jingpei - Feel 100%> 常乐... Will the arms of Hope surround me?? Should I call out to angels?? Save my Sanity.... says:
haha.. gotcha..!!

PS. She is my P6 cousin...

Natural Disaster

Is it me or is it me..?
I am starting to dread studying... especially during exam period... i find it hard to pick up after playing for the whole sem, and when i really start to enjoy studying, exams end.. what an irony... IHG season is coming... but its not at the top of my mind right now... Funnily, i think i am quite lost... maybe due to the devastation which i have been suffering from my papers so far.

Now, i am just 3 essays short of hitting 27 essays for this sem. which means that i am down to my last paper... for some people like yingying, she just started today and for people like claudia, she is finishing up her paper as well as exams as i am typing this now... Adeline ends tmr.. mine is 28th, namely next monday. As usual, i am just starting to get into the rhythm of things, but its down to my last paper already... it has been a nightmare so far, first paper, soci of research methods, i got an answer which is totally different from most of my friends. Second paper, geog is suppose to be my favourite paper this sem and my most well prepared, but i was stunned by the questions that i sat there for 20 mins dazed and brain not functioning, to top it up, my mind blank out just as i stepped into the exam hall, same thing as what happened for my A level Maths paper, which i remembered vividly... i totally resigned to it, it was ultimate devastation when your best subject seemed so disasterous. Worse thing is geog was last nite and this morning 9am i had soci of mass media, which is interesting but a damn dubious topic.. the supposedly suppose to come out question didnt appear and instead something else appeared much to the amazement of most.

my mind was pretty empty as i couldnt start studying until 11pm last nite and all i could is study till 1am and force myself to sleep and wake up early to study... something about soci is, one cant seem to remember anything from it, not like i remembered anything that i study, makes me extremely panicky each time, maybe i really need to put in some consistent work. i got a minimal 3 sems left, its up to me to extend it to 5 if i mug hard enough to qualify for honours. I wonder what kind of grades i would get at the end of the sem, i will be disappointed with 2.something or worse... but circumstances as such, there didnt seem to be anything that i can do about it... I have to admit that my views are education dun mean much in real life, and i dun understand why singaporeans are so caught up with it. Afterall, the richest people in the world, they are not the smartest and in contrary, the smartest people almost 100% dun end up being the richest, because they work for other people. But still, i am still affected by the results... somehow its just me... i just dun like to do badly in anything, its the will and desire to win in me thats making me so i guess.

I got 3 days to my last paper, which is soci of pop culture, another dubious module... At least, i hope that this paper is something which i can walk out smiling and feeling good if not confident about. its my last chance this sem anyway. I am just worried about the results i guess. Vivien wished me luck last nite, kinda sweet of her, i guess she finished her papers already, thats why she is so free... hehehz... good life...

I am thinking of the things that i can do after the papers, i know mahjong is awaiting, xiwen, carmen and barney booked me already... claudia too... but there are impt things to settle. i gotta settle the block funds and claim some money. Need to start on the treasury work for IHG this year. Trainings and Trainings!! I wanna win 3 gold medals this year, with soccer, takraw and touch, no letting up... softball seems a bit hard this year and so is handball where i am a newbie. there is dance practice coming up too... my hols seems jammed-packed.. Cant wait to earn some money, start on my swim coaching and earn money and do some part time work at redbull with randy and Judy is asking me to be trainer for her training camp in jan. i think i will agree to that, its 100 per day for 4 days. kinda cool huh... Oh, i miss LB too... but i have been so off it... i will have to start working on it again... Kelvin and Terry is making good progress now, i better not let them down. Slowly slowly i guess, i predict a busy sem next sem... I made a new resolution of studying 2 hours everyday when the new sem starts... Let's see if i can keep to that... I gotta somehow make that happen, considering the amount of things i have to do, if not next sem will be as bad if not worse than this...

I think thats all for now, i have been slacking, but i think i need a little rest for 2 days of nightmare... i will start studying tonight, now i got 2 options.. sleep or watch movie... which should i choose??? hmmm....

Sweetie is reading this i know, she is not going to let up especially when she chance upon my blog, she does sound pissed when she left that message.. haha... k lah k lah, Tell u a little secret, my sweetie looks like Jeon Ji Hyun, the korean actress i like... So sweetie, if u are reading this, hope it makes your day!! =)

Check out this song: What makes you different (makes you beautiful) by Backstreet Boys, boyband i know, but its damn sweet and its my fave for now.. this a long entry for exam period... everyone needs a breather sometimes...

What am i doing???

sigh... paper tmr... and i am still here blogging... Good Lord... this sem is beginning to sound more and more like a disaster...

the introduction of the ping pong during exams period and the whole B4 is caught in the forum fever... i'm just neglecting everything else and i still have 3 more papers to go... sigh... why cant i just focus???

Weifeng just rolled into my room again for the 2nd time... attempting to imitate covert ops... it was so damn funny... i couldnt help but start laughing... I am beginning to appreciate them more and more... everything we do, we do together, from playing to talking cock and haing meals together and going out together... God knows what would have happened if i hadnt met them... maybe i would have been at Temasek already, afterall I did contemplate leaving when they asked me last year... but the love of the hall prompted me to stay... With Roger, Weifeng and Kristian ard... things are just so ever crappy in the short wing... people in the long wing too...

Next sem is the last sem that we are going to stay together... i know i said it upteenth times... but its not gonna change... Thank you for being in my life guys, you just made it more wonderful... I will miss you guys...

My sweetie pie aka sugar mummy found out about the blog... i wonder how... and she scolds me nehnehpok and wants to link me to hers... =P

P.S. Edited at 12:58am: I just did a Weifeng to weifeng... the covert ops thingy... sent both of us sprawling and laughing... sigh... the stupid things we do together....

Wa Lau!! Keane Pang Seh!!!

In contrary to the title, i guess disappointment is the main reason... when it just hurts too much after one's whole hearted devotion and love for the club, the team you play for, your frank assessment got shot down... it just became a straw too much to take...

I think people at the club should wake up to their senses.
though his outburst might not go too well with Fergie, but i think that its a fair and true assessment of the club and the players now. C'mon!! u wanna win the Champion League or Premiership with this kind of attitude and performance? You just gotta wake up your idea!!
O'shea?? I bet his mis-passes create more danger to our side than his completed passes. Though, Fletcher score the winner, but ask him to repeat it again, will he he able to? Its just a one time fluke. Keane is just right to say that there is a wonder why people in Scotland are raving about him. Scholesy has been just lost in the midfield. among all the rest of the comments about the teammates, people should just watch their past performances and reflect on it.

Keano is a true Captain who reflects whats the truth, no hiding. If you are not good enough, just shape up and improve on it. if not, shipped out. No prima donas around please. Being at Man U doesnt make you great, there is expectations of you, can't live up to it, then just sit on the bench. People should just listen and assess the situation, who would have said all these if there is no problem at the club, if there is no problem, why are we lagging behind so many teams when we should be at the top. why are we losing at Champs League. Time to reflect Gaffer!!! O'Shea is not the way to go, otherwise, its just Man U a club of Mediocracy in the time to come. One year wonder or one match brillance is not enough, You need consistency, just as what Keane has given to the team for the past 13 years.

I felt that Keano is leaving for the sake of the club. He is old, he knows, and the club cant depend on him forever. They need to step out of his shadow, it must have been a tough decision to make. If he don't leave, they will never grow up, i guess its all in the best interest of the club and for the love of the club.

Salute you Keano!!!

First day of exam

the past week has been kinda like hell...
everyday just studying, not that its very bad, i dun mind studying at all, seriously, minus the exams that is. So if u take away the exams and just ask me to study, i think i would like kinda enjoy it. Research methods is just killer, cant make head or tails of it and the paper today is just a total stunner. usually,qn is 40 marks for past year paper and 2 and 3 is 30 each. i was totally stunned when i saw 60marks for qn 1 and i was amazed and dumbstruck. dunno what to write man... in the end, the paper was quite a disaster... i only wrote 1 and half page and 1 page for each of the 2 remaining qn of 20 marks each... sighh... end of it all, i realised my qnswer for qn 1 is different from the rest of the people... oh well... i just dunno how to feel.
there is paper on tues and wed consecutively, today was suppose to be studying for it, but i just whiled my time away sleeping, playing pingpong and takraw... wassup with me man!!!
c'mon wake up!!

Buffet to commemorate the start of exams....!!!!

the day where B4 went out to play.

Venue: Dragon Gate Restaurant, Harbour Front
Deal: Tim Sum Buffet

were supposed to go out and have a floor lunch together, initial suggestions of Kushinbo, Yam Cha, Miramar Hotel were all overturned due to high cost and inefficient planning... when we were supposed to set off at 1230. the whole floor were still sleeping at 1210... what a disaster... it din feel like its exams does it, more like holidays than anything else.

As they say, "What's Goin' On?!!"

eventually, 11 of us made it, the rest were attacked by ZZzzz monsters or not around or cropped up in school.. Man... they dunno what they are missing... Notable absentees include, barney, felix, jianzhong, joe, ben, justin. thats quite a number, but the rest of us trooped happily in anticipation of the feast before us. For me, i woke up at 8am, but purposely skipped breakfast for this... but Wingkit upped me when he skipped supper the night before too... that hungry idiot...

cheers turned to tears when we reached because its 130pm and their last order was at 2pm... after much contemplation, we decided to go to Yoshinoya.. what a let down... upon reaching there, heads turned as some indicated that we can order a lot and eat slowly. Off we go again. they agreed to grant us an extension so that we have time to eat. So the first round we ordered 112 "longs" of tim sum, not including a few big dishes like mee, kang kong, char siew, mapo tofu and 1 bowl of century egg porridge and 1 herbal soup each... we were hungry ghosts... looking at our order, the manager was more worried that we cant finish than we having no money to pay, Kristian was determined to prove them wrong.

ONSLAUGHT!!!

everyone was eating so fast and furious that we were clearing the "longs" almost as fast as they serve us. the verdict. a whooping 106 "longs" in 1/2 hour. they din have the rest of the items, thats why the disparity... we still have time for laughs and stupid comments and jokes along the way... at the end, it came down to $15.20 each. and those who never pay 20 cents, whole family leg cramp... The manager was forced to gobble up their words and we were a happy bunch, full and satisfied... and lotsa jokes to offer...

That's why i love my B4 gang...

I spoilt her too much? Yes, I spoilt her too much...

just read a close friend's blog, found out the the breakup and a funny comic strip to go along with it... it suddenly hit me with a few things... reminded me of the times i had with girlgirl... have i doted her too much? come to think of it, i think i did... i gave her the best that i could have given her, make sure that she wasnt ill-treated in anyway, attend to her every needs, go all the way out for her... most dramatically, got into a road accident for her... maybe i pampered her too much, that she doesnt appreciate it as much anymore...

like in the comic strip, when the girl suggested breaking up, there were 2 options with 2 different outcomes, one is the guy pleading to save the relationship, the girl rejected and the other is the guy says ok, and coolly walk off and it was the girl going after him admitting her mistake. Without fail, in the past, i would have easily been taking the first option, because she meant the world to me, her happiness is above my everything else... i dunno how good is that to a girl, but maybe i applied it wrongly. Cos, all along, i always felt that girls are made to be doted and pampered, and especially the one you love, but apparently, they need to wake up to their senses also. i think if its me now, i would have taken the second option, treat the girl as i would treat a friend. Its not surprising which option my friend took (both the couple are my friends), and i can picture him doing that, giving in your everything to a r/s and the girl suggest breaking up, i think its a little too much to take. not that i know of the details, i am basing it on what i am feeling now.. i think i would have pick up my bag and leave now, i dunno why the change in the attitude, maybe i have grown up a little bit more, understand the fact that some things cannot be forced? i dunno...

it made me think, it really did.. if i had the chance to retract my footsteps, i would have very much taken a very different path... maybe the photos on my desktop would hold true, but the r/s between us would have been very much different... it pains me to look at the photos sometimes, especially when people says that we got the husband and wife look... i would have been a much happier man... I think even as of now, there is still a chance, i have be make the right move, stop pampering her like i did and treat her a normal person, maybe things will work out just fine from there, maybe slow but would be moving in the right direction...

Bliss and satisfaction

Had lunch with girlgirl at yih just now... its been a long time since i had some private moments with her..

She's got tanner and less uptight about studies, maybe because she is going to SEA Games and she is training everyday day? As i look at her, i dunno how i should be feeling, that of love or that of friendship, but this time round, i am not going to let her know how i am feeling, just leave things be... if things are gonna work out... it will be so... we are talking a lot more freer this time round, maybe the pressure is gone, thats why and i am no longer expecting anything from her.. if there is, i am elated, its just a bonus..

I'm just happy to see her, she's going to novena square later for some softball promotion gimmick for SEA Games. and she ask me to watch out for her on TV from 30th Nov to 4th Dec. She's excited bout going to the games, i know. Her family too, they are all going to watch her... wow! i really wish i can go along, but i am not in the capacity to, not least that i am not even her bf...

We are going to watch Harry Potter when she comes back 6th Dec. I hope it happens, she says its too early to plan, see how when she comes back. We took a few photos just now.. just so fun.. just so fun...

Her birthday is coming 30th Nov... I will call her when she is in Manila.. I will.. I will..
(Hatred doesn't last, Love doesn't ceased)

Laying the ghost to rest...

just had a match against KR... played the first half in my favoured position... finally its making sense... i thinkmy partnership with Renhan is striking a cord.. We won 2-0, both goals by yours truly... haha.. i wasnt happy over the goals... more like relief instead... i never scored for eusoff until today... first was a kio sai, after the shot was parried, i was there for the follow up... took a lucky deflection though before going into the bottom left corner, i was just merely whacking the ball, keeper might have saved it anyway, but i was grateful and laid claim to it anyway...

Second was a beauty, off a throw in by Roger, i turned the defender on the inside and had a clear path to goal, all i remembered was that i just swing my foot and the defender came rushing in, intentional or not i dunno, it was pure instinct, the ball rocketed into the top far corner, alas Batistuta-style. Noel call it a monster goal, it didnt matter so much to me... cos i finally laid the ghost to rest and getting my scoring touch back. 3 goals in 2 matches... i can feel more coming up, seriously... IHG teams beware!! I think i am back... slowly but surely!!!

End of Term

Today probably marked the end of the sem for me... last of all my lectures i think... Ended off watching a Elvis Pressley movie from the 1960s... its a good laugh really... how simple and no brainer that was... Cool dude who always gets his girl. Its the last of all my essays too.. the last 500 for this sem, save for the exams... I finally got a TICK-PLUS for my project, hard earned i guess, i really did try to write about something different, i guess it works... still got 1 more.. hopefully i will get 1 more tick plus..? exams is 2 weeks away... i have a min of 3 essays for each examinable modules that i have.. my gawd...!!

what makes things sweet was that i went with jamie for dinner at NYDC Holland after lect today... its a good session with a little chat up... funny thing with her is that, i guess we enjoy each other's company, though we never really had a lot of talk about... no lame jokes and all.. but its changing a little after tonite... She paid for everything tonite, cos i din have cash with me, but she is not letting me go, and she expects a treat of no less than 10 times today, a whooping $360.. woohoo... On the way back, i met Serene on the bus.. never had a good talk with her before, its all hi and bye friends, since she is Mahesh's gf. She took the initiative to say hi when i din notice her... She gives me the vibes like an elder sister would, concerned and yet not too reprimmanding, can feel that she genuinely cares... concern about my studies and all... but she was disapproving of my studying rate though... if only she is my real sister, sigh... i guess i need one... elder sister that is... For that, i will make a mental note to put in more extra consistent work next sem...

I'm meeting girlgirl for lunch on wed, its amazing how we turn out to be after so much has happened... She is going to the SEA Games, and her exams end much earlier too... I wonder what things would be on wed, will love be rekindled? Do i still love her?

oh.. its sa's bday.. i just msg her... she said she was surprised that i remembered, i was surprised that she remembered mine too..

Coming of Exams..

The past week has been hectic...its been just rushing projects after projects and papers after papers. Exams start on the 18th.. i just finished my final term paper but not without a glitch though... its really tuff to work on plus there is not much research info available.. it just got more and more frustrating by the day, den the final straw came when the file got corrupted and i thought i lost everything... wat a nightmare!

2 months not playing takraw certainly takes its toil... now i am facing a fight to make the team. my whole IHG season seems to be in jeopardy.. all thanks to that stupid Martin. its the blame game, i wonder how i would be had i not sprained my ankle. sigh... anyway, i finally scored my first goal for Eusoffianos... in fact, if i am not wrong, its like my first competitive goal in 2 years... what a drought!! i hope things start picking up from here... i need to get my touches back and gain more confidence!! Let's hope this is a start...

its mugging time already... how sian... i bet this sem is a total screwed up for me...getting worrying.. i dun see how next sem will be better cos its IHG next sem and there is dance... whew!!!