Pleasant Surprise?

Yuan told me last night that this is going to be a good year for me.. and she seemed to know something that i didnt. but she din wanna tell me.. I wonder what izzit, from the conversation, it doesn't feel like its something secretive that they are planning for me for my birthday, feels like its an award or something.

She said she promised not to tell and its really some good stuff worth waiting for, something which doesnt really concern her but she would work really hard to get it and if i get it, she would be damn happy for me. I cant think of anything that is related to that leh... been racking my brain... but nothing seemed to come to mind, I gave some wild guesses like scoring a cap 5 or becoming a marquis, but it doesnt seemed right, cos she didnt tell me who izzit from. She say i gotta wait... for the more impt people to tell me themselves. Seriously, the suspense is killing me... Actually, i got a hutch that it MIGHT be the sportsman of the year award? I dunno, weijian seemed so far ahead in terms of gold medals, and there are other worthy candidates too... but if its true, i definitely would be very happy, cos i think tts something in recognition for my contribution to the hall... i think i would like to get that award at least once during my time here... Damn... now i am dreaming of it... shhh....

Just been to Kristian's house, been good old fun with fun and of course some gambling... guess what matters most is that everyone had fun.. after this weekend, my IHG season is officially over, this saturday is softball, the last sport that i am in... hopefully, my pitching will be good den i can bring the hall to the semis. KR and Sheares are really strong this year, just our luck that we are grouped against them.. minus Lionel, Yueping and Ruoyan (my girlgirl), we looked severely weakened... hopefully, we can pull of some stuns...

Its back to school tmr... sigh...

Happy Birthday to me...

hmmm.. dunno to feel happy or to feel sad when my birthday falls on the same day as Chinese New Year.. at the least, i know fengyi is not very happy with it, she is the only other person whom i know in my whole life that sames the same birthday as me. 30th jan.

Ang Paos collection this year is a pathetic low.. i think its because of the bad economic times.. another reason is that new year is losing its flavour... lots of people are spending new year abroad.. but the chief culprit gotta be that i am getting too old.. as of today, i am 24, think people are sick of giving me ang paos already.. its a sign that i must get married soon.. hahaha..

Suddenly feeling nostalgic when it comes to talking about my birthday.. think its because i usually keep a low profile regarding my birthday that most of my friends dunno.. can be a good or bad thing too... in a way, i get sabo-ed a lot lesser, it also means i get a lot lesser presents. my first birthday present came in the form of a surfer's t shirt from vivian, ann and karen. they actually went shopping to get it for me.. I was talking to girlgirl last nite den suddenly out of the blue, she wished me happy birthday... no wonder she is one who can make u smile and cry when i was going after her back then... made me miss her.. Bear tried very hard to organise a class dinner for me today, but cos its new year, most people cannot make it, thus we are trying to push it on sunday. Few other people like Fengyi, Kaori, Charlene, Vincent (Tan pun deh, of all people, remembered my birthday), Christina Cathyadi, Christian Chor and Kevin Tai who wished me in one way or another. Ok, now i have to add in Jerraine (my confidante, who msged me out of the blue and disappeared after that) and most surprising person who remembered is Wendy.. hehehz, that silly girl =) Actually, i tried to ask girlgirl out for dinner, but i guess i was too late cos she got something on.. There seemed to be something between us that is holding this afinity together, i dunno what izzit, but i felt it... maybe another story will unfold in the future.

Tried to ask baby carol out too, but she has to go visiting and her parents are leaving for msia tmr, she gotta accompany them. I think girl's mind is unfathomable, the week leading up to new year, i thought i got hit by an ice storm, but since new year eve till now, we've been talking a lot.. this hot and cold treatment is giving me a major headache..

I think there are a few things on my wishlist that i wish to get, i think i can start with a digicam, next is a portable harddisk, oakley shades, and my marqius status this year. Ayumi Hamasaki is like the hottest thing now for me.. seen her ads on the tv regarding the new dvd album.. Man i am so tempted to get it, i might even go on a spending spree to get all her albums.. but she is amazing yah? rule the J-pop scene for so long.. She is on my wishlist too den. and Stefanie Sun's new album too..

All these doesn't change the fact that i am spending my birthday at home still.. haha.. pathetic old man... at least we are going to krisitian's house tmr..

A haircut and a costly mistake...

skipped lecture today to go for haircut with patrick and roger at roger's famous hairdresser...
was so looking forward to it cos i badly need a haircut.. another thing is that i could go meet maria for dinner straight after the haircut, can surprise her a bit...

never did i expect the hair cut to take 2 plus hours, i was suppose to meet her at 7 for dinner at PS, but i was merely halfway thru at 645pm even thou i started at 5pm. It was a total disaster, she finished her work at 6plus and made her way down to PS and waited for me there. At 7ish, she msged me saying that she cant take it anymore and she is going home for dinner cos she waited for 1 hour plus and tts too much. sigh.. think its my fault to plan for a haircut session before that, cos i din know how long it will take. She must have been really pissed with me, cos she wake up damn early to go to work and she has to wait so long for me for dinner... to make things worse, she actually baked brownies for me.. that just made me feel even worse...

I called her upteenth times and sms her... she din pick up or din reply... guess she must have been really angry... and pissed.. How can i make up to her?? She is one hard girl to please, cos i know her thoroughly for she is my ex-gf... sighh..

This is dedicated to my sugar mummy

Hey sweetie...
thanks for being so attentive and concern about me... no wonder you are my sugar mummy...
She sensed my unhappiness and was here to lend a listening ear and offer some advices... love her for that =) She attempted to wake up early to eat breakfast with me, ok lah... she failed to but she offered... i appreciate her for that =)
Thanks sweetie... really appreciate everything...

Oh, the volleyball boys just saved our season, now we are in with a damn good chance to win the boys' title... provided we dun screw ourselves up... Otherwise we are in for a shout for all 3 titles, Girls' title is still undecided, but we are leading at the moment, so its good stuff... nothing beats this feeling when you are the main comm memeber of the SMC... proud and satisfied...

I'm going to cut hair tmr... but at the expense of missing a lecture, i hate missing lesson but i absolutely have no choice this time round. And DP is going full steam now, i still got softball left thou.. hope we get something credible.. Later is bbq for the touch team... gonna be booze and food... think i might get intoxicated...

With everything about to draw to a close, its almost time to pay full attention to my studies, the new year resolution i made has yet to be fulfilled, that is to study for 2 hours at least, everyday. but i've been trying to catch up on my sleep, i better change that soon...

Turmoil

Past few days has been terrible... met with lotsa ice treatment from the one person i care for most now... i think she is really trying to avoid me, she doesnt reply me anymore or our conversation has been really snappy and short... I wonder why things turn out this way, maybe its my fault to begin with oso... i went too fast and hard... think i scareded her...

After a talk with freda and addie, i managed to get some advice from them, but it seemed that the situation has deterriorated so much that its beyond salvage... sigh... i just have to screw myself up at times... Last nite was bash, I saw her there when she dun like bashes... She din even bother to acknowledge my presence or talk to me... Even Char and the rest of the gang says she's been acting funny recently, giving funny signals to people that she is interested in them? I wonder what's going on.. ---> to tell me to back off? ask me to give up?? or just to spite me?? I really wish i know whats on her mind...

I came back early thou, even though i very much wanted to drink and get myself drunk... But i got ippt. Can't sleep the whole night, cos i was worried about her at the bash, thou i know freda is there with her. At the ippt, i was damn surprised to meet kwanhua there, actually more relieved than anything else, cos i was so worried to have to take alone. but luckily got him, made things easier for me oso cos i was feeling weak and inept and troubled by her. Everything turned out well also, even though i din train for it, but it wasnt without controvesy. I finished my 2.4 run in 9:43, and i got my gold and 400 bucks. Thanks to the guy who double checked my timing for me, cos i know my timing was those borderline cases. To him, double thanks, cos i got an additional 200 bucks to make use of for my textbooks. This was the only highlight point of my life these few days, but if u ask me, i would gladly exchange this for her acceptance...

Sigh... What to do now??
Another thing is I'm meeting Maria for dinner tonight, she is baking brownies for me.. hehehz.. so sweet of her..

I think this time, its for real...

I duno why, but maybe the feelings are growing stronger...
i think i am beginning to care more and more about her, concern about her well-being, trying to give her that little something extra. And i actually do feel jealous at times... maybe i am seeing her as someone a little more than a friend.

I feel queasy when people like Andrea tries to get close to her...
Addie told me that my most hated jnr is trying to get close to her... i was like "WTF!!" That (after some contemplation, I decided bastard is a more apt word to use compared to idiot) BASTARD is attached and he is trying to pull off this stun... tmd... i hate this kind of people. Not forgetting that he recklessly injured me and made me lose so much training time and unapologetic about it. The mention of him just makes my blood boil. I hope he gets his just desserts soon...

But I have a feeling that baby is a bit like avoiding me... Maybe i am too sensitive, but i am pretty sure thats the case, I think i need some divine help on this, gotta talk to da da and Charmaine about it. Seriously, i wish to know what she is think and how she feels...

I'm troubled and confused...
I just came back from her room, everything was fine and smooth, no tension or avoidance on the surface. I really hope things get better from here...

Updating...

this is just a random post, nothing superbly spectacular happened recently... IHG got well underway thou, despite a slow start and losing 3 of our titles to TH, we came back stronger and managed to get the guys and girls champs for track, thus closing up the gap. Girls' soccer is suppose to be today but its postponed due to pitch unavailability. Baby Carol was so disappointed...
School's started for a week, but its been lectures so far. Some hiccups here and there which almost forced me to drop a module only for it to be reinstate, luckily as well cos i was really struggling to find modules to take already for this sem. Tutorials seemed quite hard to plan also, having to cater to so many people's needs. Hopefully, i get all those i wanted. Things are not helping when the readings for the level 3 thousand modules are so damn difficult. But i gotta get things going somehow, this sem is pretty screwed with so much stuff already, i better not screw up my studies also.

Its been a long time since i went home, Dad and Mum must have missed me terribly. I could sense it in their voice when they called. Though they may sound quite alright, but being kinda sensitive to them, i can tell easily. Its not helping still when i am not going home this weekend, when there is DP piecing on saturday and touch finals on sunday. the next time i am going home will be during the new year week. I think i should call home more often.

Played mj with sweetie last nite, she came back to hall especially to play mj... so cute.. hehehz, she was so excited about playing.. that was so funny. Baby Carol's parents came to visit her and brought her dinner oso, so nice of them yah?

I am in a quandary now, i shall post about it when i am clearer. Maybe, i shouldnt be so hesistant...

First Day of School

Feels like a fine day when i woke up... everything feels a little different when you are the champion. Thou i missed the first lesson at 8 due to fatigue from yesterday, Vivian was sweet as ever helping me take notes and buying the course pack. Appreciate her a lot...

went for the second lecture at 10, realised how unprepared i was for it. my table was filled with last sem's work still and i cant find anything and havent even planned for the tutorials. But its all good, cos after lesson, on the way to canteen, i met Daniel. I gave him a friendly pat on the back, we smiled at each other, nothing to say but we know it in our hearts. =) The bonding we built has been drawn nearer due to our victory, the feeling is magnificient...

At the canteen, we sat with Lay Peng, we became acquaintances, i guess its turned out to be a fine day indeed. After lunch on the way back, saw Luke and Chin, everyone was happier, i think IHG has began for us, although we lost 3of our titles to them, we fought back and are raring to go. I remembered Chin's nick last night - "Walking on the shoulders of giants" and this morning's "somewhere over the rainbow". The support was really marvellous yesterday, the best she has experienced too, she said. Cos we started fighting for something which we know its ours. The takraw team has became an inspiration for the rest of the hall. I am intending to bring it forward to the rest of the sports i am in... it just bonded everyone a little closer i guess.

BTW, Ben just came over, "Champions, lunch anyone??"

Champions~~!! We are made of this...

It all began anticipatedly, training so hard for this day, thou we were second last year, but we were the team to beat. and this year, we came with an even bigger reputation. People say that we are even more complete than last year, but according to Coach Carter, although we can win it, it doesnt mean that others will give it to you. So we began with fighting for our qualification.

Our unity, bonding was intimidating to others. When we begin our warmup with synchronised timings and cheers (you are? EUSOFF!! you are? EUSOFF!! you are? EUSOFF!!) the first ever time we did it, i remembered looking over my shoulders, i could see that the whole hall and competition teams turning their heads to look at us. We signalled our arrival. I didnt think anyone would wanna play us. Group matches against Sheares, i din even made the reserve teamlist, i thought , this was it already, this is the end of my takraw season for IHG. but we won convincingly and against KR, Ben decided to give us a run, to get a feel of things. Boy! am i grateful for that, cos i took it and grab it with both hands, fought KR's strongest and most intimidating regu and beat them convincingly, earning the praise of the captain and the seniors.

On the other side of the table, RH and TH were slugging it out, fighting for every single point to top their group, i guess nobody really wanna play us. So close they were, that they came down to their third regu, rubber set before TH won 17-16, it was right down to the last of the last point. Thou i would prefer to meet TH in the semis so we can put them out early to gain some points advantage, but it wasnt meant to be and we are meeting an on form RH instead. I knew we will win and setup a dramatic finals with TH for the title this year. But i was happier that due to my performance, i was immediately down in the reserve list from the semis onwards. I guess any other hall players would rather trade for a place in the reserve in our team.

In the finals, first regu, we lost the first set but we came back in the second to take them to the rubber set, against the legendary Eugene, their kingpin. When han, feng and kaijun won it in the rubber set, i knew it was ours. I teared... the elusive one and the one thing we wanted so much. Roger, Daniel and Kristian were up next and it was deja vu again. When the chips were down and everyone thought we had lost it, Roger and gang came back strongly to win it. It was all due to the supporters i guess, they shouted and cheered like no one's business, i think that lifted the team. But i somehow knew that Roger wun lose, something just tells me that. When the last ball went out, you could see the elation in everyone's face. Every year 4 cried, even the stone cold Roger and the act cool Weifeng. Seriously, i never saw them cheer this hard before, like they really enjoyed cheering. Success is so swweeettt and its beyond what words can describe.

Supporters tell me, this takraw is inspirational for them and makes them wanna do well and fight for everything. Cos it has everything, from clinical and conviction to fighting back when the chips are down to playing through the pain barrier. Dispelled the mental block that we used to have and instill the winning behaviour and attitude. We proved our mental strength. The fear that we instill in other halls. the spirit of the team and spirit of Eusoff, the domination we had but not dropping even a single regu, it just says it all. It was a moment of savour, to enjoy and bask in...

Beat SH 3-0
Beat KR 3-0
Beat RH 3-0
Beat TH 2-0

Right from the beginning, we looked every inch the Champions, from dressing to stretching and jumping in the warmups and cheering. We tao pok everyone in celebration, stripped our captain in front of everyone, took foto and cheered cos we wanted it so badly, to make up for last year, to make up for soccer... that was how badly we wanted it... cos...

eu wha?? Eusoff!!!
Eu wha?? EuSOFF!!!
EU WHA?? EUSOFF!!!

We are??? CHAMPIONS!!!

YES!! Takraw 05/06...

Creating History

Just had a team bonding session for the takraw boys... it was enjoyable and much anticipated cos tmr is our actual competition itself, we all have the common goal of bringing back the Gold this time round and we are pretty sure that we can do it when we play normally.

It all started with video viewing at blue oyster coupled with pizza dinner. We analyzed our own game and made some critics of it. After that it was all relax and fun with the movie "Coach Carter" at B lounge. there were fights leading up to the choice to the movies, with "The Longest Yard" coming in close second. for being a desruptive force, jeremy mak kana-ed hamtam badly, chief culprit being my beloved neighbour, Roger and Ah nua.

After the whole thing, it was a briefing about tmr and Ben surprised everyone by giving each and everyone of the team a little keychain with a takraw ball and a personal note that comes with it. I think it touches everyone and for me, its the first time that i received anything of such. Kudos to him. And i thot i saw Weifeng trying to hold back his tears...

my message reads:

Jingpei, I'm glad you perservered during that period just after your injury. I believed it must have been a low period when your touches were not what you would have wanted. But ultimately, you trained hard and now, I'd say the only way for you to go, is to be better & a stronger player.
'Sup! Ben, IHG 05/06

its been difficult, but what touches me is the fact that he said, he felt really touched and warm when the whole team went to dry the court together after a heavy downpour, so that we can train and play our friendly with Sheares... I felt it too...
I know i've been off recently, but if I were to play tmr... rest assured, i wun disappoint, cos i wanna create history...

IHG Rally

IHG Rally just ended, i think this year was a little more fun compared to previous years. The feedback i got from previous years' was that its boring and stale, but i thot Derrick manage to spice it up a little and make it a little more interesting...

Thou IHG has started and maybe ended for some people who are in guy's soccer or girl's hockey, but the rest of the games are just beginning... I thought this year's freshies dun feel as much for hall as the seniors do, but i was proven wrong today in the girls' hockey, thou we lost to TH (who imported a ton of players from ivp or floorball) i thought our girls gave a good account of themselves, they really gave their all and ran their hearts out. You see people like Su diving for the ball on a hockey pitch or Lynn playing till her fingers cramped. These are the absurd things which people wun hear of in a normal game, but i witnessed it all, I think i found some jnrs who matched my love for the hall already, for that they have my respect.

When Derrick was giving his speech, he mentioned that my celebrations and diving for the supporters was the moment for him, it brought me back to the game itself. I remembered Noel running towards me and hugging me and these are his exact words; "You have mud in your face now, but to me, you are the most handsome in the world!" These are the elations that people feel for the game and when they play for the hall, i can remember how tight Pillay hugged me, me and him, at that moment must have really thought that the jinx was broken, but at the end, we shot ourselves again...

I'm sure this is not the end, cos i have got 4 more coming up and i will give my all... Touch, Sepak, Handball and Softball and more... Its this kind of feeling that makes people come back for more... now i am considering if i wanna do honours just to play 1 more IHG... I had really wished that Derrick asked me to speak just now, but i wouldnt wanna hogged the limelight, cos afterall i'm merely a junior senior... but though the great engine is just starting, it will roll on and crush everybody. Welcome to IHG, freshies...